Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Its interesting that till today that i read this particular entry. I didn't quite think there would be a reply. I only thought of venting my frustrations then and there; and that's it, but it seems like i can play on now. haha
Actaully, maybe you were right. Over self-righteousness? I giggled when i saw this part. What about yourself then? Defence mechanism all geared up yea? It's a wonder how some people can so shamelessly comment a whole lot without even reflecting. Need i say more; or did you think that your first 2 paragraphs of admiting was the buffer.
Its true, there's no point in picking each others wrong doings; and i agree your saying that i'm still living on pocket moeny when you were already earning your keep at this age. Yup these were facts, and that you obtained your scholarship based on your own merit. Congratulations! So, perhaps you are trying to indicate that i should walk your path of stupidity and learn the hard way? No way man! I'm not about to lower my intelligence to that level just yet.
In fact, i suppose you have interpreted some parts of my entry wrongly. However, i really don't think there'sa need for me to explain since you never could and never will understand what i mean by 'holding the family together'. Why don't i try doing nothing at all? How about that? Of course i couldn't. I'm not as heartless as you after all. I'm pretty sure you must be laughing at me flattering and potraying myself this way. Regarding the taunting part, it really wasn't a challenge but a warning. If you really think you can curb me, do it. I'll graciously accept.
Oh, and the scenerios you listed out i.e. fine siblings. How noble you are to say you didn't. The switching on of lights in a room when another is sleeping. Oops, but maybe your memory is failing you that you thought you did not? What about blasting of music...hmm... maybe you'd like to think about it again? Did you really not damage all the things that you have borrowed and return?? I can only think of the computer not switching off that i still hold the record. heh.
Yes, now that i re-read, you also replied that to claim sole credit is a little far-fetched... eh.. apparently you do not understand what i was referring to. However, have you contributed or contradictory; worsen the situation then? You should know it all too well. After all, you are the eldest, so if you don't bear the burden, doesn't it fall back onto me?
The part on being confident and not arrogant. No doubt, you have improved in that, but it's far from what you think you are. One must know that arrogance is judged by others not by yourself.
By the way, i mentioned manipulating the previous, was only due to a comment you once shared. I guess you have forgotten so there is no point racking that up. In addition, you really need not apologise for your bad example. I grew from there; so that i wuld not repeat the same mistakes. It was just a comment from me in my previous post to belittle you. No hard feelings on that man. =)
CAUTION: These are really just sharing. Strictly not for those narrow-minded and grudge bearing people to digest.
P.S. In fact, i knew that i was really irresponsible there then. I never wished for whatever data to be lost. Therefore, i sincerely apologise again regarding that incident.
Alright, i've type quite a lot now. Yet, i'm not quite in the right mood to sleep. Have been very vexed today. Body is extremely exhausted due to work. Exams are round the corner.
I shall comb the beach alone on 21st February. Evening is the best to hide in shadows.
Fade into darkness... so still and soothing; it calms my soul, and the wind shall carry my tears away.
Ang Woon Jiun (Abel) wishing for the STAR at 2/13/2007 11:40:00 PM
