LuRvE hOrIzOn

2007-03-20T05:20:00.000+08:00

CIAO

2007-03-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

What more can i say?

Taking that it was me, then i'm really disappointed.

Terribly.

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When will the legal papers be done? Either way my life goes on.

Today i played soccer in the morning, following by meeting my mei.

Now am back home from work. Never work OT tonight.

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I like it this way...

2007-03-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

I've said this many times. I'll say it once more.

Treasure what you have now, because you never know what will happen the very next moment. Love those you care for and love them with all your heart. Once some things are lost, they will never return. At least, i know the day which i can call family is over; for it will be a broken one, never whole again.

I love my friends and everyone whom i have a bond with. Trust me, every single one of you mean so much to me. I didn't spell these out just because my family broke up. I meant it from the very day we forged the bond. To me, that is my heartfelt feelings.

If Woon Wei, you are reading this, i just want to tell you that as your brother, i've done what i could to help render the best situation despite this irreversible change. It may not be enough, but i tried. I hope you truly treasure your chance to study. I hope that you would not go astray because of our parents. You know you can always count on me. If you face difficulties in studies, i could try my best to help you. If you had problems you could turn to me and i'll see what i can do for you. I won't spoon feed you, but i would be there for you. That is if you wish to turn to me.

I'm rather worried for my grandmother as well. I'm afraid she may not be able to cope from this blow. She kept blaming herself evn until awhile ago. How i wish i could just hug her and sing into her ears to comfort her torn soul. I feel really sad for her as she shared with me her stories. I deeply felt her sorrows and i mst say what ever set backs people nowadays face are sometimes really minor yet we blow it up as if it's so big. My grandmother had silently bear a bottomless pit of despair. I'm put to shame.

Personally, i confess i gave up hope some where on this exhausting journey. If i hadn't given up and persevered things may not have turned out this way. I admit i only came back too late. Walking till this stage, there's no point blaming anyone anymore, but i'm disappointed to say it could be highly because of you. I was weak, sorry.

Henceforth, i will become strong again. I will. To my parents, though i doubt you two will be reading this, stay happy ya? Live moves on and even though as partners you two failed to be, strangers, need not be too. I can't live with both since i'm a single entity. So i'll visit mom when i have time, or you could come visit us if you have time. Yup, i pray that the future holds a more rewarding experience than what we think. Let's all just remembers the good memories we had together as a family and forget those tragic pass.

On a lighter note, the following are my results:
-Principles of Management: C+
-F&B Fundamentals: B+
-Communicaion Skills 2: B
-Macroeconomics: A
-Hospitality & Tourism Marketing: B
-Introduction to Perspective on China: B+
-Sociology: C

Though i did not do as well for the final exams which is why my this semester's grade fell a fair bit, but i'm still glad i improved quite a fair bit as compared to last semester. Therefore, my cumulative GPA is now 2.89 =)

It is Christopher's birthday. Time flies and in an instant he's no more the secondary two short pants innocent guy. You are already 16 and i'm really fortunate to have met you along this road of life. May God bless you! See ya in a few hours time.

Oyasumi nasai mina-san. Otaijini!

2007-03-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

I stumbled across this blog that is really plain but the entries are engraved with so much vocabulary that makes me feel so inferior. I simply admire the way the sentence structures are beautifully woven to match every word and vividly drawing a clear expression to readers. How i wish i could be half as good. The words are not inspiring but rather depressing, yet it translates a form resemblance to who i feel i am.

Okay i think i feel better after rattling all those rubbish in my previous post. Now...

Many of times i really don't understand what others are thinking or are trying to say. I cannot really decipher correctly what are the hidden meanings between lines. So, i've decided not to stress myself so much in an attempt that may finally prove to be un-called for.

While i always contemplate how i should go about helping others, advicing them, i finally discovered i myself have been doing what i've been telling others not to. That is, to let go of the past and move forward. What a mockery isn't it? This must certainly be a part of me trying to see in others the good which i cannot seem to work towards. Never mind.

If nothing out of the blue pops up, i think i can start to let my old self manifest again. After all, i lost my dream, i don't have a goal, a purpose, and definitely no sense of future.

I am not surprise if some people say they don't know me, i can't agree more, i don't even know myself. In fact, i don't believe anyone in the world truly knows anyone, not even themselves. I think to say we know is just an excuse again to hide our weaker side. Just like when we say we know what we are doing; we are in fact just trying to assure ourselves that what might be wrong must be correct.

How ironical my thoughts can be. What i believed was always right seem to be entirely opposite now when i look back. Everyday i realise i'm doing more and more wrong. I cannot understand my actions or words. Do they react on impulse or did i planned them? Did everything that happened really happened for a reason? If everything happened for a reason, i think it can be very scary when anyone reflects how much damage directly or indirectly the person has caused to the surrounding living and non-living alike.

I know nothing can be remembered forever, and when finally everything disappears and is forgotten or lost, what matters would be during our time of existence, long or short, that our insignificant difference is recognised and lived through the people we care and love.

How am i suppose to achieve such though?

There are so many questions that need answers, and they are racing through through my mind in an endless twirl that seemingly seeks to dissipate my will to go on. How long more can i last.

I love You, I hate Me

He walked away
She did not ask him to stay
He made a mistake

and decided

He will never be worthy to return. but he still loves you

2007-03-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Have been too busy working to blog.

The standard school holidays have begun, but i'm still all alone.

My age friends are either in army, working full-time, or having school attachments.

My ex-colleagues are busy with work too.

My juniors are tied down by school remedials, and tonnes of homework which i most sympathise, but ganbatte yeah!

My batch friends are mostly in JC now and are busy with either school work and CCA.

At TVC i'm still very stranger-like to most.

Am i even remembered...i really do wonder at times.

Life isn't fair i know, but i do remember all of you! Every now and then i would like to forward some cute or well wishes to my friends out there to let you all know i care and remember all of you.

I don't ask for anything in return, but it is still sad to feel lonely.

Is it again my approach being wrong?

Getting emotional won't help i know. Yet i cannot restrain my emotions right now.

I reflected time and again, as each day pass, how my error will cause the many repercussions to follow. I regret deeply. I finally understand i'm incorrigible. Still, i want people to accept my existence and worth. I keep fighting on and on with no particular aim. All those long-term goals and plans are merely my excuses to push myself on. After these 19 years i am still trying to figure out who i am.

I don't really believe in any religion, though i believe in the good teachings they spell. I have always believed in myself, and me alone. I don't really trust anybody totally; i hold back too much. I've tried over the past 4 years to open up more but i realised it made me weaker. I used to be able to hold my tears no matter what, but now i'm frail when it concerns matters of the heart.

I will forever remember what someone told me "You do not know what true love is." Indeed you may be totally right. That's why i've said i want to be single. Until the day i know my end has come will i tell the special someone my feelings (that is if i have then). I seem to only hurt those that i care. ..And someone once put it so bluntly "you play with people's feelings". I never knew i was seen as a devil.

I just cannot forget all these. They haunt me every day, every night. My retribution perhaps. I'm resigned to it. It was my fault to begin with. Especially with the reverie i'm holding right now.
These are the marks of my sin.

You know, i believe in my own strengths and abilities that i'm gifted with. I sincerely want to use my strengths to help others, but people tend to find me annoying instead. Few actually appreciate. What should i do? I'm exactly like a lost lamb in the vast horizon seeking a direction to move on before winter arrives and freeze everything; devouring all warmth.

I know this post sounds really negative, but i really yearn for someone to touch my forsaken soul. It can be anything, from love to friendship to inspiration. I need to become strong again or i cannot protect those who are important to me. I know all these may sound bullshit. However, i hope those who know me would agree.

At this point of time i must endure every remark even if it is scars me. It is important i do something for someone in my family or catastrophe might very well occur. I've lost a bond once, i don't wish to loose another.

Ugh

I need to pull myself together for now. Even if i so say, my heart still feels terrible now.

Alright i think that's enough of my rants. A quick review of a few happenings the past few days:
-KBox with my project group
-CYA
-Ritz Banquet

Today had TVC post-concert celebration (pot-luck) at Nelson's place. So so. A pity there were lots of leftovers. It was expected though. I made this new recipe i created only last night. It's a bottom layervbeing grape-flavored konyaku jelly with nata-de-coco and another layer of peach mango yogurt and cadbury marble chocolate on the top most.

Now, on a more positive note, next Thursday I will be ging out with Chris and maybe a few other friends to learn bladding, and celebrate with him his birthday too! Have not really decided what to get for him. I usually believe in handmade gifts being more thoughtful. See how again bahz.

Making food for people is a rare thing you'll see me do. tsk tsk

When can i be the one held?
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uoy evol llits i
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gomme nasai...

2007-03-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

I feel so freaked out by some of my friends when they told me everything i typed on my blog. Really didn't expect anyone else whom i did not give my blog add to view. Nonetheless it isn't really a bad news. nothing

Yesterday first day go back Ritz after my long self imposed 2 week examination leave. Wah! i chiong from morning 9am - 2am. My legs have gone all stiff and back is cracking lah. That's the feedback you get after MIA for so long. The reward was i got to work with my buddies! Long time no see man; my Ritz family. must

Whoa, but morning was really quite shag. My cranky manager Boon assigned me to set up an entire Luncheon Meeting Room all by myself. Imagine the stress! Then, afterwards, the lunch was running at the pace of 8 course chinese lunch to be completed within an hour! Total madness!! Ahyeeee. That meant that each course i had to pick-up, portion, serve, clear within about 7-8min. To add on, later in the noon, me and houseman Song Yuan had to set up the entire M floor! It was fun though, that's why i am not intending to leave Ritz for at least till i graduate. I like the environment and my colleages. happen

Friday and Saturday's performance at durian was pretty fun. Think i gave my best. It's sad though i think i have not intergrated into consort. Maybe i'm too anti-social. Got to work on being more sociable perhaps. to

Anyway, these few days i've tried to do a review on my EOY, and my conclusion:
Alligators have swam away. Think i'll be rearing bulls and cats instead. So yar, you get the idea. you

Think this holiday is going to be quite empty for me after all. Everyone is so busy that i think there might not be outings to meet up. Guess i'll just drown myself in work and other activities if there even is. Really sad. i

i thought you said we could meet?

... want

Ok thanks to that someone who returned me my things. I'll get the disc burned soon. to

I'm in no mood to blog, but in no mood to do anything else either. just having this empty and lost feeling. Why am i always so helpless? ..all i can do rattle whatever i feel.. be

I'm suppose to make my way down to ZHSS choir now, but i guess i'll pass. In the end i might bring the wrong impression to him and sour our friendship. Being helpful can be wrong too... i've learnt that. your

where do i go from here on?

I don't know my directions suddenly. I've realised that school days are better than holidays somehow. At least i have things to pre-occupy my mind. Nowadays i think and simply think too much! Humans like myself are just so contradictory. Sometimes we know what we want, but we refuse to act on it. We let it pass. Why? wings

i fear to know the answer

But i know I love you

2007-03-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

I don't blame anyone for their reactions. I think the problem lies with my approach. I tend to transmit the wrong message to people which causes misunderstanding. I'm sorry to mess everything up, but please believe me, i never meant anything. I'm just not good at expressing myself. sigh.

2007-03-03T02:26:00.000+08:00

Aquarius (Jan 21 - Feb 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Taurus Libra Gemini Virgo Capricorn
Good: Aries Scorpio Leo Sagittarius Pisces Aquarius

Aquarius Man:An Aquarium is a principled man and also idealistic. His love affairs have intellectual and artistic bias. He would be a considerate husband. He is very inquisitive. He achieves some sort of prestige in life. His love life is glamorous. He wants a wife who would be a friend and doesn’t depend on him emotionally. He marries late in life. He is very honest in his relationship and possessive. He makes a friendly father.

Aquarius Woman:Aquarius woman is very honest and faithful in her relationship as these form her nature. She is interested in multiple activities and doesn’t like to be tied down to one thing. She has a remarkable intuition. She values truthfulness in her man. She is a gentle and passionate romantic. She wants her husband to be a friend first. She is put off when her husband encounters her with jealousy, possessiveness or prejudice. She is a tolerant mother and gives priority in teaching moral values to her children.~

Pisces (Feb 22 - Mar 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Aries Scorpio Cancer Leo
Good : Capricorn Aquarius Sagittarius Pisces

Pisces Man:Pisces man is a romantic lover. He has lovely imagination and is dreamy. He doesn’t have any prejudices. He is an idealist and unrealistic. He is tolerant, sensitive and secretive. He hates nagging woman. The two fish in reversed direction symbolize the nature of Pisces: to move up towards his goals or go down and never reach his goals. He is a good organizer and is fair in judging. He loves music and art and has deep wisdom. He hides his sorrow with the veil of his good humor. In love, he is a leaner emotionally and needs his woman’s reassurance and faith. He needs space in relationship. He is stronger and wiser than he comprehends. He makes a good listener in a fathers’ role. He handles them carefully and with love.

Pisces Woman:Pisces woman allows her man to dominate her and is happily content to lean on his shoulder. She wants him to protect her and care for her. She is a calm, tranquil and gentle person. She is dreamy, subtle and deceptive. She masks her shyness and vulnerability by her humor. As a mother she manages a balance between discipline and kindness. She tends to love the weakest of her offspring more than the rest.~

Aries (March 22 - April 20):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Leo Cancer Sagittarius Pisces Taurus Libra
Good: Scorpio Capricorn Aquarius Aries

Aries Man:Aries man is very intense and tend to go to extremes. He is very passionate and gives himself totally to the woman he loves. An Aries man is scrupulously faithful and honest in love. Adultery is distasteful to his honest nature. He is possessive and jealous in the extreme. He demands the same fierce and unquestioning loyalty that he gives in both love and friendship. As he is a born leader, he always like to lead and refuse to follow. He expects the full attention from his woman and at the same time gives his to her. He makes a warm and affectionate father.

Aries Woman:Aries woman is very independent and doesn’t rely on her man for support. She is very optimistic. She is very possessive of her man and at the same time very faithful and loyal to him. Her conversation is very intelligent.She is a woman who is honest, passionate and exciting. She is little bossy and impulsive too.~

Taurus (Apr21- May 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good : Gemini Virgo Capricorn Aquarius Libra Taurus
Good : Aries Scorpio Sagittarius Pisces

Taurus Man:Taurus man is very very stubborn, ambitious, composed, strong and talks less. When he loses his temper - which is rare - he could be destructive and violent. His actions are slow and steady and he cannot be pushed by anyone as he always stands by his own principles. He has strong character, great physical power, endurance and is a homely person. He is loyal and devoted to his family. His romance starts only after he finds that his partner has lots of qualities which appeal to him. He likes his partner to be feminine and intelligent. He likes music and art. He is simple person and doesn’t like extravagance. He is courageous and dependable and has lot of strength to face any kind of crisis. Taurus men make loving, affectionate, warm and sympathetic fathers.

Taurus Woman:Taurus woman is strong enough to handle any type of emergencies or crisis. She has remarkable self-control. She is practical and loves naturality. She is also sensuous and likes music. She is a hard worker and never complain about anything. She is always there to support the family in the times of financial crisis and sickness. She never expects to be supported without contributing her share. She dislikes weakness in any form.~

Gemini (May 22 - Jun 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good : Aries Scorpio Taurus Libra Leo Sagittarius
Good : Pisces Capricorn Aquarius Gemini Virgo

Gemini Man:The dual nature of Gemini man combines two completely different personalities. He always contradicts himself due to this dual personality. His personality keeps changing constantly. He cannot be tied down to one place or one idea. He cannot stand routines. He could breakdown with boredom. He likes to converse and mix with people and hates loneliness. He is generous with money. He has a brilliant humor, tact, diplomacy and adroitness yet lacks persistence and patience. He is faithful and very honest person. He likes his woman to be a mental companion, one who matches his wits. He is not an egotist. Love is not just physical to him. He is a romantic person. He makes a friendly father and very close to them. He spoils them as he doesn’t like to impose any discipline over them.

Gemini Woman:A Gemini woman has multiple natures. She is faithful, adroit, gracious, charming, and a romantic woman with intense passion. She is very friendly. She is very adjustive. She loves outdoor games. She would get bored by routines. She is honest, intellectual, restless, nervous with wavering minds. She is quick witted and can get into, and get out of any argument. She is friendly with the children and makes a good mother. She influences her children and thereby help in making them independent like her.~

Cancer (Jun 22 - Jul 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good : Scorpio Gemini Pisces Leo Aries
Good : Taurus Libra Capricorn Virgo Sagittarius

Cancer Man:Cancer man’s passing moods are synchronized to the moon. He can be flirtatious but can also be sensitive and loyal. He is very cautious regarding money and security. Though he spends money frugally he willingly share it with someone he likes when they are in need. He is a romantic person and also practical and sensible. He is soft and affectionate at heart. Though he looks tough outwards he is soft and affectionate at heart. He is very close to his mother. He loves to be petted and babied by women. His standards are high and not every girl can meet them. He makes a caring, gentle sympathetic and understanding father.

Cancer Woman:Cancer woman’s’ moods often keep changing. She is modest. She is always careful with money and shows interest in the growth of the saving account. She can’t stand being rejected, ridiculed and criticism. She is a good cook and mother at heart. She would go to any extent of sacrificing for those she love. She is very possessive, but never aggressive. Patience is her virtue and it reflects in her love. She has a good humor. She is a pillar of strength to her family. She is a mother by nature as such makes a great mother to her children. The warmth of her love makes her home rich.~

Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Sagittarius Pisces Cancer Aries Scorpio Leo
Good: Gemini Virgo

Leo Man:Leo man is dominating, jealous, kind and good hearted. He is faithful. He is very good in fixing the problems. He knows what he wants and knows how to get it and keep it. He is overbearing, and unless the partner is submissive and docile, it leads to clashes. He is frank. Enjoys sports. He needs to command and be loved. He does anything for the person who loves him. He makes a warm, wonderful father.

Leo Woman:Leo woman is a born leader,sentimental, generous, dignified and strong. She enjoys sports. She spends a lot on dressing. She is very faithful. She needs appreciation. As a mother, she is generous, affectionate as well as strict and a disciplinarian. She is also a good career woman and will balance her home and career with perfect aplomb.~

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Aries Scorpio Taurus Libra Leo Sagittarius
Good: Pisces Capricorn Aquarius Gemini Virgo

Virgo Man:Virgo man is not a outright romantic. He is practical and self disciplined. His love is unselfish. He seeks quality rather than quantity in love. He seeks a decent, honest and genuine relationship. Once he finds such a relationship, it’s permanent as he would go to any extent of sacrifices to make it so. He takes care of material and emotional needs of his family well. They are very possessive and also very loyal. He is very neat and tidy person and cannot tolerate untidiness. He is hard working and well dressed. He will make a responsible father and implements discipline with his children.

Virgo Woman:Virgo woman is a pure hearted person. For her loves should be pure and she wouldn’t mind any amount of suffering to attain it. She is a perfectionist and doesn’t allow any sort of shortcomings in the relationships. She would terminate a relationship if she finds that it’s imperfect. She can be a good financial advisor. She has an independent personality and doesn’t depend on her husband for everything. Her discrimination capability makes her a good critic. She is very faithful and for her beauty means truthfulness. She trustworthy and one can safely trust her with any secrets. She is courageous and responsible. She is also a good cook and makes a gentle mother. She is also a firm disciplinarian and with it instill good habits in her children.~

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Gemini Virgo Capricorn Aquarius Libra Taurus
Good: Aries Scorpio Sagittarius Pisces

Libra Man:Libra Man has a strong charm which is irresistible. He is known for his fickleness. He is inclined to go through more than one relationship before deciding whom to marry. He is extremely trustworthy. He doesn’t like to hurt others. His is so fair that being unfair is a equal to murder for him. He is an expert lover. He is logical, rational, fair, sensible and practical person. He is lavish with cash. He likes a clean and organized home. He likes the woman to take initiative. He is a doting father.

Libra Woman:Libra woman treasures the man she’s chosen to love and honor above all else on this earth. She is a perfect companion and is romantic. She doesn’t like to be a stone around her husband’s neck. She is fair and weighs everything twice before making a decision. Her decisions are usually right, as they are made after careful considerations. She is highly intellectual and has amazing powers of analysis. She makes a good professional advisor in business. One cannot help appreciating her efforts at fairness and her ability to judge correctly by weighing all sides, when it comes to something that really matters. She is sentimental and affectionate. She is very dependable and raises herself to face the problem when there is crisis in the family. A Libra woman is affectionate and never neglects her children.~

Scorpio (Oct 24 - Nov 21):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Cancer Leo Sagittarius Pisces Taurus Libra
Good: Aries Scorpio Capricorn Aquarius

Scorpio Man:Scorpio man is extremely passionate and also intelligent i.e., he has traits of passion and reason hence emotions and intellect rule him equally. He is very strong tempered. He is considered very sexy, and he is very true when he is in love. He is a self-contained man and not affected or influenced by others opinions. He is very inquisitive and one cannot hide anything from him. He is straightforward and doesn’t bother if it hurts the other person sometimes. The magnetism of a Scorpio is hard to resist especially when he is after you and wants you. He loves homely and motherly woman. He is loyal, tender, considerate and shower that extreme love on the wife who understand him. As a father he is a disciplinarian.

Scorpio Woman:Scorpio woman is confident, magnetic, proud, possessive and a deep person. She is very accurate in assessing the intentions of the others and can tell exactly whom to trust and whom not to. One cannot succeed in fooling her. Her emotions are extreme i.e., she can hate with bitter venom and love with fierce abandon. A strong, masculine and intelligent man suits her best. She is loyal and intensely passionate. Truthfulness and honesty are dominant in her character. She is very protective of her man and is a disciplinarian at home. She likes power. She returns double the amount of what ever she gets whether it be kindness, love, insult or hatred. She refuses to see any viewpoint other than hers. A Scorpio mother is always there to attend to her children’s needs and is a good teacher to them.~

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21):
Compatible With:Very Good: Aries Scorpio Cancer Leo
Good: Capricorn Aquarius Sagittarius Pisces

Sagittarius Man:Sagittarius Man is a lovable, frank, intelligent idealist. He is highly optimistic. He is an extrovert and talkative. He is straightforward in his speech and his tactless and thoughtlessness could be misunderstood as rudeness. He is honest to the core and can never tell a lie successfully. Loves sports and adventures and have lots of courage which makes him to take up dangerous jobs. It’s hard for him to resist gambling. He is also a traveler, always on the move. He is a easy going person and doesn’t take life seriously. He seeks casual relationships and is a flirt. He likes intelligent, independent woman. He doesn’t like his woman to be a stone in the neck. When he says he loves you he is very honest of it. He makes a good friend to his children. He comes closer to them as they grow up. He teaches them honesty.

Sagittarius Woman:Sagittarius woman is very frank and outspoken. She is very blunt in talking. Her outspoken bluntness often causes misunderstandings. She almost immediately forgets all those sarcastic talk she just did and would be friendly. She has a clear and realistic view of things around her. She can never lie and is honest to the core. She is very independent and not the one who would take orders. Her actions match her talk as she does not only that which she preach. She doesn’t expose her sorrow. Though she is intelligent, independent and could take care of herself, her heart is vulnerable to pain. She is very honest. Sagittarius woman are extravagant. She is sentimental in love to the extent that she would not allow anyone to touch the pen her lover gifted her. She is not a nagging type. She makes a good friend to her children. Children get influenced by her honesty, frankness and optimism, which leaves the mark on their character.~

Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 20):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Taurus Libra Gemini Virgo Capricorn
Good: Aries Scorpio Leo Sagittarius Pisces Aquarius

Capricorn Man:Capricorn man is a hardworking, ambitious and adaptive natured. He is a perfectionist and a disciplinarian. He is shy natured and doesn’t show his emotions outwards. He is a family man. He doesn’t marry in a hurry. He would like to marry a person who is homely and likes his wife to be a good housewife and a good companion. He is a responsible man and takes care of his family. He is a tough guy with a gentle heart. He makes an ideal father. He is a devoted father and can make any sacrifice for his children. He insists on discipline and commands respect and obedience from his children.

Capricorn Woman:Capricorn woman seeks security, authority, respect and position. She takes up the career only to satisfy these goals. She is affectionate and passionate. She is beautiful and a romantic. She is also a realistic and a family woman. She is a pillar of strength for her family as she supports them financially and morally. She is stubborn in nature. She keeps her house spotlessly clean. As a mother she teaches her children politeness and mannerisms.

2007-02-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

The weather may be bad, but rain or shine, my care will not be weathered. This promise holds true to all my friends out there. So, when you are down or simply want to chat, i'm always around for you! In effect, i'm nearly able to be physically there for you guys now as my EOY exams are finally over. So no matter, cheer up! I love you all!

Just heard a terrible news from my mum; a relative of mine is confirmed to be down with the last stage of a type of cancer, and another is down with a stroke. It's sad to hear, even though i'm not close to them at all. I pray that heaven above let them leave these planet of worries peacefully.

Being alive and healthy is really a big blessing bestowed upon us. I will definitely treasure the people around me. I know that to regret only after loosing will be a pain beyond our imagination. I hope i will not have to experience that. I really wish that in time to come i can overcome the struggle within my heart now and tell that special someone my feelings. I don't know how long i'll take..maybe by then she'll already be with a guy she lovees, then i'll just burry the feelings like i did back then. For now, i'm contented to just be friends.

Anyway, I was a little zui ba yang and ate more new year goodies these few days despite the quota i set for myself - No Heaty Food Until After Concert. Therefore, i'm down with a little soar thraot now. Please let me recover before Friday.

Tomorrow will be my first time going to the backstage of durian. Wonder how it'd be like? Seriously, i think i'l get lost somewhere. Haha.

Alright, my plans for this holiday is:
>to meet up with c, yyand jac for K.
>to learn blading from chris; wonder if c or other pp will join us?
>make-up for my CYA duties on 5/6/19/20 of march 'fixed income: $40'
>to work at ritz for at least 20 days. Counting this sun and next thu and fri, i will need to book another 17 more days out of my 7-weeks holiday. 'target income: $800'
>to go K on 7th march with zw, wl, w, yc, d. 'budget is $20+'
>to go malaysia to shop (probably in april so need to save up first 'budget is S$100') "anybody need me to help them buy anything?"
>to meet up with NDP'04 leaders '$20 budget'
>to send off my 2nd best friend -cs, on 13th april into tekong.
>to buy a walkman and 2 mp3 players (one for my younger brother..shhhh it's a surprise). Oh dear, i'm going to spend a lot!
>to attend my 1H11 class chalet 'my quota; to not spend more than $30 for this chalet.'
>pay my bills
>save $200 for school reopen use

Guess that's for now. ciao

for that minute, everything froze.

my heart seemed to stop beating,

and my brain mulfuntioned; i thought a miracle happened.

a forbidden reverie

2007-02-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

The first thing i got my pay, i bought BoA Made In Twenty! =D

She just gets better! The voice, the dance, and of course her beauty! Haha. I'm so in love with her now.

Okok i know i'm crazy.

You know today i forced myself to get out of bed early in the morning so that i could be the first to borrow my school's marketing textbook. I got it! Heh Heh

Yesterday's TVC practice at SCH was pretty good i suppose. Thankfully i did not forget my part. Well, there is only two part after all; guys and girls. SCO plays so well, i thought i was transported back to china in her days under emperor qin shi huang.

Alright, i'm going back to study my dear Marketing. Wish me luck for my exams! Oooo

2007-02-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

I had a terrible dream last night. You were gone somehow, and i was flushed with a feeling of emptiness beyond expression. My decision was right after all; you weighed so much in my heart. Nothing bad must ever happen to you.

2007-02-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

Heard my new blog song? Yup! That's the OST of the 2004 Phantom of The Opera movie - All I Ask Of You. Lovely isn't it? It's been my dream to find a duet partner for this song. Haha.

Anyways, time flies, and soon i will be able to watch the actual thing itself - The Phantom of the Opera Musical. I'm so excited!

Well, today i'm quite pleased with myself. I've actually more or less completed studying for my F&B and covered a whole chunk of my econs. 8h studying in school sure paid off. Hope tomorrow's revision will be as productive. I want to complete the remaining econs and at least 70% of my entire POM syllabus before going for TVC rehearsal @ SCO.

Earlier on, i was racking through my cds and i realised i have lost my BoA-Overgrow dvd! Sobs sobs. Did i misplace it or lent it to someone? I cant remember. Now i can only practice dancing with her old cds. =(

Okay it's not all bad news i received today. Results wise, i'm rather delighted to announce:

-Principles of Management course grade: B
-Marketing course grade: B
-Macroeconomics: A
-Communication Skills 2: B
-Food and Beverage Fundamentals: A

So in tally, my GPA is currently 3.4!!! Wahahaha

You know that's a great leap from my previous 2.67? However, CDSs have not been included. I hope i don't do too badly if not my entire GPA will be pulled down. I really want to do well for my exams. I hope i can revise well enough. So off i go now to continue with revision. Ciao!

2007-02-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

It's sad. I did not wake up and see her. What a dream. Hah.

Anyway, really a big THANK YOU to all my friends who remembered my birthday and sending me well wishes. Those little words, to me, meant more than all the gifts that anyone could get in the world. Counting, there were more wishes this year than last. =)

Lets take a review of how i spent the first day of my 19th year on this planet called Earth.

I woke up near noon. Studied my F&B till around 2 plus before leaving for Heartland Mall to do some shopping. In the end, i only bought this new comic called Chrome Breaker. I think the NDP'o4 shirt that i wore today is really my lucky charm; I hit the jackpot! The artwork is considerably good and the storyline is really mind intriguing.

The story is about this Child of Satan, or otherwise known to humans as demons, who is a protector of the reincarnation of Mother Mary. I foresee love to spark off between this two most unlikely duo. Till then, i can't wait for the second book to be out!

After my visit at Heartland Mall, i went down to Bugis Street in the hope i could get a copy of BoA's latest album. However, it was a wasted trip as it is not available in the market yet. Guess i'll just have to wait a month or so. So, i went to Bugis Junction and in one of the stores selling OSIM products, i saw my 2E1 classmaye Suelyn! Haha, that thick make-up. It's good to know my friends are doing well. Her pay as a sales promoter is $8/h. I'm so envious of girls...looks pay off after all. lol

My craving for food soon manifested and i proceeded to Sunshine Plaza to get my Fried Wan Ton noodles from the famous Parklane Wanton. After my sumptious meal, i took bus 12 down to Siglap South CC before changing bus 13 to VJC and walked to ECP. After all, every birthday, i would go out at night to some quiet place to calm my soul. Tonight, ECP was really the ideal place. The sunset was beautiful, the sky was clear, the breeze was cooling, and the atmosphere tranquil. I combed half the beach before finally coming back home.

As i enter my the 19th year of my life, Naruto and Bleach anime has also entered its second phase of release. Yes! Naruto anime is back from its fillers! I cant wait for the next episode whereby Naruto and Sakura shall take on Kakashi in a training showdown. As for bleach, we will soon see Ichigo learn to become a full Vizard. Whoa

Back to studies, i did study quite a fair bit of my F&B throughout today. I will finish it by tonight! Tomorrow i shall complete my econs and start on POM. At least that's the plan for now. Hope i don't deviate too much from it.

To be frank, i'm actually not a happy soul today. I know birthdays are no special day in truth, but it's really sad when negative elements have to turn it sour. Perhaps it's good intentions; but definitely wrong approach!

Okay i better not get too emotional now. I just want to say i missed her the whole day but i made the effort to be just a friend. Thank you for remembering my birthday. I won't ask for more.

P.S. Those who forgot to wish me this year must remember to wish me next year wor..hehe..

2007-02-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

BoA has her latest album released!! Can't wait to get my hands on a copy of it. Wonder if Bugis Street has the cheap stock already?

You know i'm having the thoughts of getting a walkman and discman in march after i resume work at Ritz. It's weird people move on with technology, but i'm moving backwards. Haha. However, some things should not move on with time. Certain sentimental stuffs you know.

Ok woon jiun has not studied much yet. Last night quite productive and completed half of my macroecons syllabus but there's still tonnes more to go! Time is off the essence..sigh

Turning 19 so soon. How i wish i can walk backwards. Growing up isn't that fun after all. I never want to act mature, or be strong; and take all the wrong steps in the end. Adulthood? There isn't much to look forward to except a spouse and kids as rotten as yourself.

To be very honest, as much as i complain so much about the work load school is piling on our backs, i am very clear that working life is going to be much more stressful. Even part-time employees like myself will not fully understand the wrath one has to go through when taking up a full-time post.

Parents are really not easy to be. It's the same concept as falling in love in a second, but taking a lifetime to know what love truly is. It really isn't easy to keep it the way it is. I've given up though. Haha. Shall just take a step at a time, and let fate decide.

Looking forward to this Friday's TVC practice at Singapore Conference Hall with SCO. Hope i will not sing wrongly by then. Struggling to learn the 5 pieces by myself these few days. I need more music competence!

Anyways, Mr Bean's Holiday looks like a very funny movie. I want to watch it! Yep. Heard Harry Potter book 7 coming out this year too. Must save, must save. No $ no talk $. Oh yar, Just Follow Law is a good show. Watched it alone yesterday, and i laughed till i nearly had an asthma attack.

Speaking so, reminds me of this auntie who is probably in her 50s'. I was at MOS burger studying yesterday and when i went to the counter to order food, she served me. I must really comment that she was an excellent staff. She paid very close attention to every word i said, making eye contact whenever possible and smiled most genuinely. She was flawless in executing counter service steps and even offered alternatives and add-ons to my meal. Thank you! It was a pity i didn't have the time to write an appreciation letter for you then. Youngsters nowadays need to really work on their service attitude, especially smiling. I've realised that smiles are like blue moons that hardly appear.

Time is pressing, i shall return to study.

He smiled; solaced by memory

2007-02-18T03:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

Woon Jiun is clearly not in the mood to sleep nor study, but to party!

Alright, didn't really party. However, this year's reunion dinner at home took a twist. Parents bought back packed 'nian chai' - Fuo Tiao Qiang, Fried Yam Cake, Herbal Chicken, Sweet & Sour Dory, Pig trotters with Man Tou, Mushroom Greens, Yam Paste (We didn't eat; were all too bloated already). Previously we always, and only had home-style steamboat. So it was quite a pleasant surprise too see such a spread on the dning table. Thanks dad & mum!

Thereafter, we celebrated together my grandmother's and my birthday. It's neither my birthday today nor my grandma's, but since this is like the only day everyone can be together so 'chen ji' lo. Haha. Parents bought 2 cakes - Oreo Cheese Cake & Cheese Brownie Cake. Oishi!! Yummy! I didn't eat much though... later fat how?? I already have a tummy lah. Sobs sobs. Need to exercise...must!

To my family, thanks for the gifts. The funniest thing that happened tonight was probably the fact that my didi gave me a women's small hand bag as the gift. Am i that gay? =p

After the celebration, i wanted to go out with my brothers to LAN. Sadly, when we walked to the shop, we realised that it was after all eve of Lunar New Year; so obviously business was not in operation. In the end, i returned home to dig out my 'Jiang Shi Dao Zhang' vcds to watch.

I am actually supposed to be studying. Counting, i really do not have time to be enjoying, but i cannot quite get my engines started still. Somebody help me. I am really worried, but everytime i sit down to study, my mind knows no focus and thoughts naturally float elsewhere. -sigh-

Anyway, really quite a happy day today. Wishing everyone a prosperous new year ahead and good health always. Stay happy!

______________________________

YOU! STOP leeching me!!!

If you choose to wait, then WAIT. You are not waiting, you are making me go nuts!

Leave me alone. I beg you.

Your words are never true.

You are the liar.

You always contradict and give people hopes; then shattering everything.

You caused everything.

What more do you want?!

Do i have to report to you my every little decisions???

NO!

I live my life. Get out of my life this very instance!

Yes. Believe it or not, I really HATE YOU now!

2007-02-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

Whoa, was drinking Vodka (40%) last night. Although only one glass, today morning i think i still experienced some hangover effects; could not get out of bed for an hour. Guess i can't quite hold my liquer. Haha

Went to ZHSS at around 11. Rather sad that my batch (88) people hardly returned. Missed them a lot. In fact there were very few alumni's who returned this year, as compared to previous years.

Had a good chat with some of my teachers. Also met yy, but only passed the gifts. Didn't really chat. I think i have this bad habit of becoming a mute when i see people with their friends that i don't quite know. I must learn to be more sociable! I think i only had a good chat with jac, coz we went mac to talk. Betsy joned us eventually and jac's drawing skills is getting better everytime i see her. Ganbatte!

On my way home after seeing jac off, went to YY comic shop to borrow Bleach manga book 21-29. The reason i'm blogging this late is because i was consumed by the manga since i reached home. Just finished all the books. lol. The plot just get's more and more exciting!

Yes, as you can see, woon jiun is still very listless and un-motivated to study for his EOY. More to the point, he's very emotional these few days. Yep, but it's all over. I'm never going to turn back again. Never.

Anyway, i'm not intending to become a monk. I know it's hard to understand what i mean by this. It's my personal joke with mingying. Don't think she reads my blog though.

I'm going to take everything from the start again, and IF ever i'm blessed to have you by my side, i will never let go again.

Till then or never, i'll be your friend; what you asked of me back then.

2007-02-15T01:26:00.000+08:00

Valentines' Day 2007 wasn't that bad after all. haha..

I take back what i said in my last entry.

In fact, I'm really quite happy even though no miracle happened.

Firstly, i got back my marketing oral assessment and it was a splendid result of Grade A. Then, i got back my Macroecons portfolio which registered another A. The best part is, my entire course grade for Macroecons is also an A. However, my marketing presentation and proposal result was as predicted, just a pass.

Before school ended, my classmates gave me a class photo with thanks at the back to me for being the class rep this one year. Its really happy to know when your contributions are appreciated. Thanks!

Though couldn't have dinner with yy, c, and jac, it was still good to be able to meet c and pass her the gift. Will pass yy and jac's one on fri when i see them; together with cny gifts. ho ho ho..i love to give.

Alrights, i'm off to continue with editing of my CDS -Sociology presentation. Still have admin stuffs to do too. Good night my friends, and take care!

2007-02-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

It's Valentine's Day.

There will be school as usual. Everything will go on just like any other day. The special gift i prepared, i don't suppose i will have the chance to give her. In the end, it was the same as then at the airport. The heart i kept, the feelings i hid.

Getting emotional ain't good. I'm way too emotional now though.

Ugh

Do miracles exist ...even if we work for it?

A Heartfelt Reply

2007-02-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

Its interesting that till today that i read this particular entry. I didn't quite think there would be a reply. I only thought of venting my frustrations then and there; and that's it, but it seems like i can play on now. haha

Actaully, maybe you were right. Over self-righteousness? I giggled when i saw this part. What about yourself then? Defence mechanism all geared up yea? It's a wonder how some people can so shamelessly comment a whole lot without even reflecting. Need i say more; or did you think that your first 2 paragraphs of admiting was the buffer.

Its true, there's no point in picking each others wrong doings; and i agree your saying that i'm still living on pocket moeny when you were already earning your keep at this age. Yup these were facts, and that you obtained your scholarship based on your own merit. Congratulations! So, perhaps you are trying to indicate that i should walk your path of stupidity and learn the hard way? No way man! I'm not about to lower my intelligence to that level just yet.

In fact, i suppose you have interpreted some parts of my entry wrongly. However, i really don't think there'sa need for me to explain since you never could and never will understand what i mean by 'holding the family together'. Why don't i try doing nothing at all? How about that? Of course i couldn't. I'm not as heartless as you after all. I'm pretty sure you must be laughing at me flattering and potraying myself this way. Regarding the taunting part, it really wasn't a challenge but a warning. If you really think you can curb me, do it. I'll graciously accept.

Oh, and the scenerios you listed out i.e. fine siblings. How noble you are to say you didn't. The switching on of lights in a room when another is sleeping. Oops, but maybe your memory is failing you that you thought you did not? What about blasting of music...hmm... maybe you'd like to think about it again? Did you really not damage all the things that you have borrowed and return?? I can only think of the computer not switching off that i still hold the record. heh.

Yes, now that i re-read, you also replied that to claim sole credit is a little far-fetched... eh.. apparently you do not understand what i was referring to. However, have you contributed or contradictory; worsen the situation then? You should know it all too well. After all, you are the eldest, so if you don't bear the burden, doesn't it fall back onto me?

The part on being confident and not arrogant. No doubt, you have improved in that, but it's far from what you think you are. One must know that arrogance is judged by others not by yourself.

By the way, i mentioned manipulating the previous, was only due to a comment you once shared. I guess you have forgotten so there is no point racking that up. In addition, you really need not apologise for your bad example. I grew from there; so that i wuld not repeat the same mistakes. It was just a comment from me in my previous post to belittle you. No hard feelings on that man. =)

CAUTION: These are really just sharing. Strictly not for those narrow-minded and grudge bearing people to digest.

P.S. In fact, i knew that i was really irresponsible there then. I never wished for whatever data to be lost. Therefore, i sincerely apologise again regarding that incident.

Alright, i've type quite a lot now. Yet, i'm not quite in the right mood to sleep. Have been very vexed today. Body is extremely exhausted due to work. Exams are round the corner.

I shall comb the beach alone on 21st February. Evening is the best to hide in shadows.
Fade into darkness... so still and soothing; it calms my soul, and the wind shall carry my tears away.

2007-02-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Painful words, painful actions
Painful sight, painful consequence
When will redemption take place?

Salt the wound, make it bleed
Open it, do not let it heal
When will the memories of guilt fade?

Tearless tears, what are they
Silent fears, who will know
When will these nightmares end?

A face, inverted smiles
A thought, far-fetched reverie
When will hope cease to exist?

Light the light, walk in shadows
Song of love, lonely reminder
When will death spring life?

I chose this path... and live in regrets
I blame no one. They are all self-inflicted.

I hate myself
Why can't i let go of her
Why did i hurt her
Everyone was right all along; i don't deserve to love or be loved.

Will isolation be my liberation?

2007-02-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

Yayee! I got into The Vocal Consort.

http://www.thevocalconsort.org.sg/members.html

The above is our website. Met several friends there. It's so much more productive than when i was in TP choir. In fact, we will be performing 5 pieces on the 2nd and 3rd march at Esplanade in collaboration with SCO and experts from Huangmei Opera. i'm left with like 1 more practice before two more rehearsals and than it will be the concert. Oh gosh i have to practice hard, but i enjoy it =)

That's all i've got to say. Hee..

Hope is merely disappointment deffered

2007-02-11T10:01:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO

I'm back, and i'm very much alive!! muhaha

Returned home last night from my primary 6-03 class gathering, and though only 10 people turned up, but it was just great!

See the following pics!

At marina square swensons (Left: Ling Quan - my best friend!- , Warren buddy , Ee Hiang)

Still at Marina square Swensons (Right: Mason -crapper- , Chuan Shen -my 2nd best friend!- , Suneeta -ancient figure-)

Our longest pool match ever -see.. warren stood there for eons before deciding which ball to strike-

So glad to also see Kim who's going to fly off to New Zealand to study pre-med for 6 long years. We'll all miss you! Hope you come back with a boyfriend than we'll have one less member on our 'Sad Case' group. haha

These few days had been having this 'what should i do' feeling. The first being that i have no projects at hand now so the excessive time that i have, is channelled to sleeping and nothing else. ZZZ. Besides, i have yet to plan out how should i study for my EOY!

Emotionally, its still very complicated. Just don't feel like thinking about it. -_-

There's however one thing that has really lifted my spirits, and that is, I scored an A2 for my re-english o-level paper! Hooray! Now i can merge my certs and get an L1R5 of 11 and R4 of 8. Eh..but i still do not know where to collect my cert? -oops-

Hope that my fellow friends who took the o-levels can cheer up if they did not receive what they expected.

Sat when i worked at Ritz, everybody was talking about their results and when they knew i scored an A2, i received several unpleasant remrks. Quite sad to hear, and as if that wasn't enough, my head was nearly crushed between this marble partition and a concrete pillar while carrying the partition. Later on during ot, a 5ft round table also smashed onto my face and thankfull, my eyes were somehow not hit. So now there's a scar on my nose area. -phew, but "hui rong le"-

Today, i will be going to Siglap Community Center for my audition to the vocal consort. Please please let me pass. So better not be late. I'm off.

and i know no matter where

live takes me to

a part of me

will always be

with you

2007-02-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

4 months of grueling 'project-ing' is almost coming to an end. I have done my best with the time I was given so the results don’t matter anymore. So, its time I started studying for my EOY. I don't want any regrets after exams. I want to enjoy my holidays!

However, woon jiun has not much discipline and focus when it comes to mugging, so he needs some people to study together at times. Anybody want to volunteer? haha

As always on advertisements, companies will have to give a brief description of their product first, so here's how product - woon jiun is:
1) Not too ugly in appearance
2) Eats quite a fair bit while studying (if not will fall asleep) crunch crunch
3) Needs music and may sing while studying (if with others will shut up don’t worry)
4) Cannot study in places that have their air-conditioner switched to polar degrees
5) To conclude, he can crap quite a fair bit but usually stays reclusive tsk tsk

Aah those were just some random facts about myself. Now is the part where I’m going to start rattling about some really annoying people so don’t mind my limited vocabulary and language used.

Denise Tan. Yes you! I don’t care if you are reading this or get to know about this entry anyway. You have %@#$-ing pissed us all out. Our group is too disappointed with your damned attitude. Prepare to face the axe during peer evaluation. Don’t be surprised if every tutor phones you up to have cha with you, because you will get the result you rightfully deserve! If you think you are better than Zhen Wei, then you are totally wrong, for he has a much better attitude than you despite his sub-standard quality of work. You’d better stop thinking that the whole world owes you. Keep up your current attitude and u guarantee you won’t pull through next year. Shall not list out your horrible acts in public, but I hope god in heaven strikes you to your senses quick.

-takes a deep breath-

Valentine’s Day is coming. Another year of solitude? Looking forward to Chinese New Year though; as there is always the incentive to work and earn extra pay. Besides I have prepared little surprises for some of my really close friends. Hope can meet up then.

Today was another ordinary day. However, Communication Skills 2 role-play was fun! woon jiun played the role of this intern who barges in on a senior management meeting and make a whole scene complaining. Then, there was another scene where I sat in for a meeting as junior staff of the company and then starts pressing for explanation and resolution against senior management who ate durians in office. Cannot understand what I’m typing? Well, each group had to prepare a meeting scenario and act out, and I volunteered to be this mysterious element to pop-up in other group’s meetings to see how they react and handle different situations that could happen in real life. Naughty me.

Still can’t get me? Haha..too bad then, he is lazy to explain more.. lazy and getting random.

Now I’m listening to Jian Ao, Ai Mei, and Liang Shan Bo Yu Juliet. Very nice songs! =) therefore, am currently learning. Now I have started the countdown, and I can feel the jitters for sun’s audition. Really hope can get into the vocal consort to continue develop choir-ing. Surprisingly, my O-Level English result release which will be out this coming Fri is not even quite registering in my mind. Lol.

Eh, sorry but this blur sotong typing this entry doesn’t know where to collect his certificate…can any kind soul who knows please, please tell me. Thanks!

I miss playing soccer with my 2e1 guys. Was playing soccer at the street soccer court few blocks away, and lost. Thankfully I didn’t loose my foot this time.

Alright I’m not exactly in the right mood to blog and am running out of topics to write, so, I shall take my leave. Cya!

2007-02-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

Ohiyo Mina-san!

Hehe..i'm in good spirits right now! Woon Jiun has finally been given a laptop, and am using it right now to blog! cheery! Thanks Dad!

Still very blur with this new thing, or should i say this old man (myself) is not used to using laptops. Either way, it tookme a whole night to get it started. Had so many registration procedures, following back-up, etc.

One sad thing is that it has no microsoft office suite. So, tomorrow i'llave to go school to borrow the software and install.

Now i can surely produce my assignments more efficiently anytime anywhere.

On Wed and Thu i sort f took a little break by sleeping earlier since projects were more or less done for the week. Today continued the rat race once more. I did return to ZHS choir though...miss them la.

Tomorrow i'll be meeting group members for project again at the national library. Thereafterat night will be workingat Ritz again. This is hotel banquet, not the foodcourt "Banquet" worz..lol. I hope my feet recover a whole lot bythen. However, it'ss still bleeding all over thanks to my silliness for not wearing socks while playing soccer back on thu. -prays-

Am not sick as i thought so few days back..just went down with a little soar throat. I must cure it before 11th Feb. That sun will be my audition for the vocale consort. Somehow Mr Ong K.L. is supremely bias against Nelson Kwei. Wonder why..haha

Since have quit TP Choir, i wonder what ther CCA i should join..? Somebody suggested air riffle? Someone else also suggested joining HTM Interest group where there is lots of pretty girls. Do i look like those kind who flirt around??! Well, i personally have no preference at the time being. I think only in 2.1 then i choose new cca. After all, i have already chalked up 85 seal points by end of my year 1. =)

Alright, i shall stop here. Need to continue to write my China Journal. Good night peeps. ciao

2007-01-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

I think i'm falling sick. Have this giddy and vomiting feeling.

See these pile of newspaper lay strewn all over the floor?

Yes, Financial Times.

Was burning my entire night to absorb the content of 12 copies. I only managed to turn in for a one hour sleep from 7am-8am before reluctantly crawling out of bed to go to school. -plucks hair-

They sure helped me gained an immense insight into the financial situation all over the world. I would recommend this paper to all especially those taking Economics. However i think its not available anywhere, so perhaps if anyone who is interested, do let me know and i will save copies for you.

Was hoping to be able to find just one article that could be used for my macroeconomics individual assignment. In the end i could not seem to relate anything i've learnt to all the articles. Failed i have, but anyway today's macroecons group presentation went pretty well i suppose; tutor assured us we scored at least a B!

Came home at 10 past 8, and watched the ASEAN Championship Finals Leg1 Singapore vs Thailand @ the National Stadium. Yay! Singapore came through with a well deserved 2-1 score. Hope they will put up an even better composure when they travel to Bangkok for leg2 and return home in triumph. Go singapore Go!

Recently dad finally acceded to my request for a laptop. Really thankful; or else i would have to slog isanely during my upcoming holidays. "Thank you papa!" ...though i did'nt say this in front of you, believe you can feel my sincerity right? :)

Tomorrow there's my China presentation. Hope all goes well. Somehow relations with group member Jean is very strained. Just pull this through and we can go our seperate ways so let's all cooperate for the last time ok? haiz...

My body is really giving way to the endless projects, but alas i can see the light. Haha. After next thu, everything will finally be over. All that will be left is my EOY Exam to revise for. I will work hard for EOY. Definitely!

________________________________

2 months already. I think we have finally put a close to our unresolved chapter. We had our differences. Glad we can still be friends. Wish you all the best with him.

That empty feeling that i held all these time has finally found its answer - I was missing her. Sorry but i will not confess my love again. I like it this way, at least i can love her from far away.

2007-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Realised i had been very harsh on my previous post, but fear not, the woon jiun is still the person you know. I'm not that scary la.

Had a relatively good morning and a great night. (: ..thanks..

Just returned home from the performance by The SW CDC Vocal Consort @ the Esplanade. It was alright. Just that the sops were rather flat i feel. Feb 11 i'll be going for their audition..hope can get in.

Exactly 3 months from today will be back at the durian but a different hall to watch the most anticipated Phantom of The Opera. I bought the 2004 movie dvd back about a week ago and have been watching it again and again. Whoever would like, may borrow from me. No interest charge don't worry.

Now i'm going to bathe before starting on my Econs project and study for my commsk2 test. Rest well people. Loves~

2007-01-28T01:57:00.000+08:00

Why am i blogging at this unearthly hour especially when i'm rushing projects...

Its because of YOU!

Fuming because of your words. All these years, tell me, what have you done for the family?!! In fact, how much has it because of you, that the family is in such a state?!! If you read this entry, i suggest it's high time you reflected upon yourself.

Being always so full of yourself an stubborn towards advices... it is no wonder you fail so many times in life. Your insatiable ambitions are almost always built on wildfire that dies down almost instantly. Just because you are financially more independent now you think you have a foothold in this family?? Think twice.

You think you can manipulate people very well eh? Try me.

Those years when you left the family, who was it that was supporting and holding the family together? It was me! You think it's all a miracle the family is not apart yet. Almost every of my actions have to be timed and coordinated before executing. My life = Hell life in this house. All you know is about yourself and your current 'contributions'.

Why should i even bother about that little kid - over-sized baby, if i had really given up on the family. More to the truth is, i am hurt beyond your wildest imagination that i've turned cold. Cold so that i won't feel hurt anymore. Yet, i have not given up trying to remedy the situation; even if the house is a training academy to nurture freaks like myself. Does anyone know? NO.

I don't blame that on anyone. It was I who hid from everyone. That's why with no ventilation for my frustration, this is the only channel i can turn to. By "talking to myself" at least i can keep going on.

You say i'm irresponsible, inconsiderate. These words cut so deep into my heart. My life has already been torn by this family all these years; mutated by all our weird practices. I'm so afraid to let anyone outside this forsaken house know the true me. I put a mask day in, day out. I have no choice.

People can turn to their relatives, say cousins. Sadly, my family tree seems rather screwed up from the beginning. Although now we cousins are trying to build up the relationship, but i'm already lost.

My friends i don't wish to burden. Its a lonely road. My love life is also all jumbled! Its a terrible feeling. Studies wise, not doing very well too. However, i still have to always be the one to stay strong. Why can't i have the chance to play the role as a dependent variable. I thank those who have been by my side all these while, but this feeling is something no one knows for that is my deepest secret in life.

I've always envied those with a simple life; those who can still partner innocence. I wished i would grow up slower. So that i can have more excuses to not know the reality of life. I'm not trying to say i'm very matured and all know-ing, but who knows what i've been through.

Guess pouring out is all i can do.

Well, as a sum up of today's happenings:

-The HTM olympics - badminton, me and my partner got thrashed.

-I read through a pile of Financial Times and realised i've missed out a lot on the world economy and major issues. Thankfully it isn't too late to catch up now.

..am doing macro econs individual component halfway.. still have to do research on F&B later. I can't imagine at what time i'll be on my bed again. early tomorrow 9am have to meet at River Vale Plaza for group project. Denise once again cannot be contacted. I can't be bothered anyway, simply going to mark her down.

Now can only look forward to The Vocal Consort's performance tonight. Still feeling rotten though.

Ugh

free my soul ... somebody .

2007-01-27T01:45:00.000+08:00

Today i decided i shall spell the good news first!

Hooray! Woon Jiun scored an A for his marketing case study! It's so motivating to know also that my class ranks top in the entire Diploma! wahahaha

Now, for the bad news...
For my marketing group proposal and presentation, i'm pretty sure we screwed up with a D or at best a low C grade.

So, i guess its still a C grade in the end. Sigh.

Also received my beloved China scrap book result. Barely passed, but i'm already very thankful to Ms Lim for acknowledging my efforts and passing me by a mark. that's wh for my group project, i've put in even more effort. I really hope to do well for this CDS that i love.

This weeek was BOMB week. Wny?
Well, it's because i have to attend 2 presentations, and one test. On sat, i have even signed up for the HTM Olympics whereby i will pair with my classmate yi chong to play doubles for badminton. lol

POM presentation went alright. Mrs Tay kept nodding in assuarance so i think he faired alright. HOwever, my sociology test was truly hardcore. I estimate just a psss only. I'm sad that my GPA will thus remain at the average mark of 2 point something.

Okay enough of school stuff. Cousin outing was planned on 24th Feb yea? I sincerely wish that it can be postphoned till march as i have to study for my EOY exam on that day. Miss ya all!

This sun i will also be going to watch The Vocal Consort performance at the esplanade. Holding high expectations. haha.. Will be watching with my ex-tp choir members.

Today its Wai Meng's birthday so i hereby wish you all the best! May you be safe and happy in the army and hope to meet up soon. Have the best 19th year! On Thu was bao bei jeremy's and Mr Lim Yong Kern's birthday. Jeremy has turnedalready 13 yrs now. weex!

For now, woon jiun's eyes are already going to pop out due to the accumulated nights of fatigue. Good night people.

2007-01-22T08:29:00.000+08:00

I finally plucked the courage to tell my choir IC that i'm leaving. Chatted real long but i must really say a big thank you for your understanding. Thank you!

And to all my friends, JX, Cheryl, E cong, thanks for the concern. Really appreciate.

I will strive to work hard again. I know its going to be more difficult from here on.. but your words alone give me strength.
Anyway have the idea of trying to audtion into The Vocal Cosort. Guess i'll ask zhong hao how he went for audition the other time.

Alright, empty words without actions will not work things around so i'll get back to project. -The school lab is so cold today-

your pleasant surprise really meant a lot. i knew you read my blog, but i chose not to believe for i did not want to hold hopes.

2007-01-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

Everything's upside down for me.

Is this what you call retribution? perhaps.

...i deserve, i know its fair...

I think i'm going to fade away from choir... tp choir...i will miss ya all.

Never thought such an outcome would be.

My life took a 360 degree turn over these few days.

I wish i was just dreaming. I'm not.

2007-01-19T02:04:00.000+08:00

I am really depressed about my results.

I failed my China pair work.

Ms Lim was so disappointed with me.

My GPA has nearly no chance of doing well anymore.

After working so hard, these are my results.

Why?

I feel really lousy.

Morale is at rock bottom.

Only hope is to score As for all my exam.

Yet it is probably just my reverie.

I have lost the motivation to carry on.

Just feel like giving up and scraping passes will do.

Now i'm lost.

Take me away.

2007-01-13T12:15:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days of shower once more..as miss loo would quote "shower of blessing", but i beg to differ. I am constantly forced to use an umbrella which would hardly even shelter me from the downpour. It has become such a chore to go outdoors! I had to cancel my jogging plan today and even going to the kopitiam near my block to pack lunch was so troublesome and coming back with wet dirty legs. argh

One thing that i can feel good about is probably that i've finally completed my marketing proposal for the pulau ubin golf resort. One down, but many more to go! ...or should i say SIX MORE! Gosh... and today's plan to meet up with group members to complete china project was also cancelled as a member was too exhausted already by the seemingly endless PBLs. sigh..hope she does not fall ill..and i certainly do hope we all quickly find time to meet up again to get it done. Time is really off the essence.

Later meeting YY to pass her her very very late christmas prezzie. haha... hope she'll like it. ^^

Yesterday went back zhss choir helped out. Think they have potential, but i'm afraid i have to be frank that gold is still a little far-fetched for them if they remain at that standard. Silver however, i strongly believe they have no problem in achieving. =) So ganbatte people! I'll be helping out if ms tan hwee pin allows. -prays-

Today piah-ing projects as usual. Tomorrow will be working in the noon till night. Feeling very broke..erm i mean i am very broke. How i wish $$$ will fall from the sky. -in dreams-

Anyway i've received some of my Mid-Term test results, and i'm really quite disappointed. haiz...

Macro-Econs: 78/100

Principles of Management: 62/100

Communication Skills 2: B+

Current GPA estimated to be 3.0 . At present i just hit my target, however, i'm so afraid it may any time be destroyed if my other subjects screw up. I've really studied hard you know? For the projects i daresay i put in every ounce of my effort. Perhaps i'm just plain dumb. Those who loaf around actually did better than me! Why? In tutorials and all other aspects i always fair pretty well, yet tests and exams i just can't seem to shine. Life isn't fair. I know.

Oh well, i can only try to work harder. At least i now know my tp choir won't be selecting me as main com. which is a great relief to me. at least i can help by the sidelines.

TP open house is next thu to fri.Tp choir will be performing 2 songs - Lion Sleeps Tonight & Stand By Me. Wonder if i'll see zhss juniors? lol

To: Si Qi, if you are reading this entry, hope you recover soon. Sorry could not visit you.

I love you! but i'll never tell you again

2007-01-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

Oo its rather late already. If i continue this kind of nocturnal lifestyle, i'm very sure in no time i will don the mask of zoro. Yet, as much as i wish to spend more time in bed, the intensity of my course leaves me with but the computer as my 'wife'. From projects, to tutorial assignments, to school announcements, time-tables and even lectures are to be computer based!

I can only look forward to my academic year end holidays which will commence in march.I will then declare a day off just for SLEEPING.

Had CYA at airport tonight. It was a new location this time round; and bitterly i must admit i was very lost at the beginning. Thankfully blur woon jiun managed to familiarise himself fast enough not to make a fool out of himself. My new partner Dennis was really good with the place we were allocated. If not for his help, i think i would have directed many of the passengers a detour before they finally figure out the place they wanted to go.

Am really exhausted today, but after this entry i shall have to resume my commsk2 research on "how to do business with china". I guess it will not be too difficult since my CDS is Perspective on China.

Tomorrow there's my TP choir. Somehow dread it nowadays..because i have to lead warm-ups and song singing. why why why??? A part of me really wants to help bring the choir to greater heights, but another side i don't feel i'm capable enough. Besides, i really don't hope to be part of the main com unless the choir is committed and truly have the passion to sing. The seal points to me are not important. I just want to have the whole lot of us make beautiful music and enjoy. Who will understand?

Regarding those social loafers in my project groups, i've decided to be cold-hearted and mark them down based on facts. What ever that you have contributed i will note, and what ever you did not; i will state too. I should not always be the one to 'bao ka liao' you know?!

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I like it this way
Bitterly so far away
Yet in my deepest depths of heart
You were there right from the start

The memories still in my head
But i never ever dread

I like it this way
At least i can love you from far away

I Like it this way
Even though my past astray
They forbid me to seek you out
You look out for his where-a-bouts

It hurts me though i put a smile
I deserve, i know its fair

I like it this way
At least i can love you from far away
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Created this song lyric today. What triggered? Perhaps watching 'my date with a vampire' yesterday sparked off my running emotions i suppose. But i stress, its for no particular reason. Have yet to compose the tune. When i have time i'll see to it. Cannot afford to get too emotional now.

Speaking of 'My Date With A Vampire', i dearly want to find its OST! Its been like out of stock at Sembawang since a year ago? i want to buy it! i don't care if my piggy bank becomes a stick insect. the coins inside its belly is already causing cracks. hah. I ought to spend a little before it vomits. =p

Okay, enough of blogging for tonight. Time to get back to work.

~otaijini mina-san~ =)

2007-01-07T04:11:00.000+08:00

A heart ful of love...
A heart full of song...

Ahh..Les miserables soundtrack is just so good!

Really have been hoping that i can find someone to sing with me all these while; to have a duet partner. Singing alone always seem so empty whenever it comes to love songs.

Today i slept in the noon for about 4h that's why i'm very much awake even at this unearthly hour.

Well, today had not been a particularly good day. In fact, its been very sour at home. Didn't quite have the mood to blog, but there's just this urge to pour out some of my thoughts?

I'm already very hard pressed with projects and tests round every corner. Friendship with some friends seemed a little strained because of my carelessness with actions, others simply because i'm pissed with that social loafer attitude. My biggest mistake in life now turned out more costly than i ever thought..i am to be hauted by you your ever so frightening actions and your words of butchery forever?? Yes you! Family is in conflict more often again too, especially between me, my younegr brother and father. i wonder if 2007 made a turn for the better or a twist for the worst?

At least i can comfort myself witht the fact that in today, i had completed all my tutorials for next week, prepared my Principles of Management lecture notes and mind maps. I have also completed my sociology movie review and diablo story book. Practiced some singing just now too and researched on my marketing PBL.

Tomorrow will be another long day for me doing group project for marketing. Will be at rivervale plaza mac from 10am with my group members. At night i'll be doing my china and econs research again. Very reluctant to work next sun actually but i'm also running out of allowance, so i've got no choice.

Good morning to all and i'm going back to slumber now.

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wishing you were somehow here again
wishing you were somehow near
sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed
somehow you would be here
wishing i could hear your voice again...

dreaming of you
won't help me to do...
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2007-01-05T11:05:00.000+08:00

School has reopened obviously, and my sleepless nights have returned to habit once again. This is not good, but that's poly if you want to at least obtain a pass.

This whole month is project due month. So you can imagine how rush time can be when i'm taking an insanely 7 modules! In case you wonder its only 7, poly students generally take only 5 to 6 at most. The best part is our academic EOY is right after CNY! cool

No CNY celebration or birthday celebration for me...lucky i'm used to it. Yet, it would be difficult to pluck the mood for study too. ugh dammit =(

My poly open house would be on 18-20 Jan, and i'm a B-guide! heh. Basically i am at my school's (Business) booth to guide those parents and primary school kids to tour the facilities. Sounds interesting but i'm afraid i will be too shy to talk to them. oh no

Anyway something really motivating popped up while i was walking in century square. I went into Lazer Flair (a shop that sells disc) and i so luckily chanced upon Les Miserables -In Concert At the Royal Albert Hall- CD!! Woots toots ..and it cost only $8!! Original and nothing more! Without thinking i bought it and am listening to it everyday even at this moment =p I believe there's still stock as it is a closing down sale. So anyone who would like me to help them purchase a copy just let me know. Its really conveniet for me since my school is so near to century square, so no worries or be ps.

Truly mesmerised by the songs, especially 'Empty chairs at empty table'.
Here's how the cd cover looks like:

Talking about musicals, i can't wait for april to arrive! Phantom! i've like learned almost all the songs. haha.. they are so beautifully composed. Especially the duets. =)

For now i take my leave. Need to get my commsk2 Strutured Reflective journal done before going to school. Won't be able to make it for ZHSS choir today. Jiayou yeah guys!

i dreamt of being with you again last night,
it was so sweet...
but surely it was just my reverie once more

2007-01-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

Day two into 2007!!

Yesterday was a day that flashed past almost as if it never existed.

Early 6am I woke up to get ready for work. Reported at 8am and was greeted by warm greetings from my managers and colleagues alike. today's event was brunch serving at grand gallery..but was quite boring to handle. Then after lunch DJ like mad!! ~!@#

But Alan has made the effort to finally know my name. Am so happy!!!

Work at ritz ended at 3.30p,. Only some people stayed back, but i had to go for i still had my CYA to go at 6pm-10pm.

Had a really expensive dinner at M.S. yoshinoya. Costed me like $7.45 =x luckily today's pay is $8/h or else i sure heart pain sia. Then walk walk, that's the freedom of being alone, lol.

Eventually wanted to take bus 36 to airport but i almost waited for eons and it still did not arrive, so i decided to take mrt. The best part i suppose is me falling asleep and exceeded my stop. In the end, i was late for CYA! gomme nasai

CYA was good today, since i was with my gd fren kah wee. He so fun to partner. Too bad he has gf already or else i may consider him as my gay -ahem- =p

So yup, my long day ended after i reached home, bathed, and applied for my Cross-Disciplinary Subjects (CDS) for next semester. the order goes like this:

(1)PSYCHOLOGY
(2)LOGISTICS AND SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT
(3)SINGAPORE LAW
(4)PUBLIC SPEAKING
(5)JAPANESE

Wonder which i'll be posted too?

Tonight is a rare sight in the skies.. there is little clouds and the moon shines brightly..with stas glittering the hovering abyss. Its really a nice sight!

Tomorrow i'll be going for a morning jog with zhen ming before returning home to piah my projects. School reopening on 3rd Jan and i have tonnes of project not done. I am so dead.

Loves to all & mina-san, otaijini ^^

so glad it wasn't referring to me

2006-12-31T00:05:00.000+08:00

2006 is coming to an end. Time to draw the curtains open for a brand new 2007.

I've given deep thought regarding my resolution for next year and i suppose it should go something like this:

-I will to study hard to excel in my dream course (want to score GPA 3.0 and more)
-I need to be frugal because i want to travel overseas (need to save S$500)
-Train myself to be able to run 2.4km within 9min
-Exercise enough so that i can do 50 sit-ups in a min, and 10 pull-ups in a min.
-Practice my falseto so that i can expand my voice range to sing Jeff Chang Songs without strain

My wishlist:
-A labtop
-A sling bag
-A street soccer shoe
-A soccer ball
-Trinity Blood Cross (actual size)
-Durian party

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~~evol~~
what do i want...?

2006-12-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

Translation:Good-bye Days

So right now I'm going to see you,
That's what I've decided.
I want you to hear this little song I've made.

I slowly turned up the volume,
Until I found just the right level.

Oh Good-bye Days!
I know things are gonna to change.
We said our good-byes yesterday,
But your honesty and kindness are still with me.
La la la la la I'm with you…

I take out my headphones,
And hand you one of the earpieces.
Then the music starts to play.

Can I really love you?
Sometimes I don't think I can…

Oh Good-bye Days!
Things have already started changing.
But in my heart it's all right.
Because I have your kindness in my heart.
La la la la la I'm with you…

I don't want to worry about the future,
But it keeps bothering me.
Even if I've got my friends around me,
That doubt is still there…

Whenever I hum that song,
I always wish you were here.
But I'm still glad that I met you
And found your kindness.
La la la la Good-bye days…

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Very meaningful right?

Yup! As you might suspect, the above is the translation of my current blog song. Its by Yui! Came to adore her songs after watching Midnight Sun with Xin Ling and Jun xian last Sat. Skyline, Its Happy Line, I Know, Rolling Star; are also great songs by this young singer/actress. I even bought the soundtrack. haha... really first time i go so crazy over a romantic movie. but its really sweet to watch and i had tears...can you believe that??

After the wonderful outing with Xin Ling and jun Xian, i went to hotel to pass alan some documents, before going down to PS Marks & Spencer to spend on christmas gifts for friends. Really spend a lot but i know its worth it; for my friends are priceless assets in my life. =) Then, i proceeded down to srg mac to give them a box of chocolate from M&S. Miss them all! ..and thx ping ying for the lovely wallet!

Christmas eve morning, due to the dreaded rain, my soccer plan was cancelled!! dammit. thereafter i just lazed in bed till noon and met siqi to exchange gift and had a lunch. We even caught death note 2 the movie. psst..not suppose to actually coz watching wif 603 this thu but i can't resist so will watch it again coming gathering. lol.

Later that evening went to taka to meet 2e1 pals. woots! pk got a new gf again. wm and yh and shawn all attached too! hehe...all the best! well we had a lot of trouble deciding where to eat coz everywhere is crowded. So in the end we made our way to paragon and at Spagetti. I ate this crayfish and tenderloin. it costed my $22.90 ++ !!! but once in a year...i was willing to pamper myself. After all i've work so hard at ritz for this christmas. ^^

Crapped a lot, the whole lot of us. Since all were guys except for pk gf, we even went to play catching in marina square. we are nuts as always. ho ho ho

Very reluctantly we left for home at around one in the morning of christmas. this year orchard road is plain boring. No sprays, poor deco. sianz. But having my buddies company is all i can ask already. thanks!

Christmas day itself was however far more dead then i had expected. only went out of home at 3+ to visit angie at her home. Had a gd chat. Missed her. So happy for her she and her bf still hen hao. Too bad her ah boy in army if not we sure crap a lot also. haha. At night played soccer as well as played lan with didi...lost la..he so pro..me really need to brush up if i even intend to be on par. Supposed to meet ben, wm they all again that night but too late after my CYA so they called it off. ps ah guys.

At night was chiong-ing bleach nime with da ge. absolutely cool story!

Woke up late today morning. Went for choir just now. That's about all that happened these few days.

Thanks loads to all the people that wished me merry christmas! All of you have showered me with unconditional care and love and i feel so fortunate. Special thanks to Siqi, Angie, for the gifts, and to Jun Xian, Xin Ling, Ming Ying, for the cards and well wishes!

Though i feel lonely still, i know i'm not alone.

ciao

2006-12-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

I'm experiencing a really bad time these few days. I should say especially bad these few days. Had been terrible since a long time. Thanks for hurting me. I know i deserve it.

Anyway i attempted to complete my Sociology quizes, but failed to. Failed a quiz to be exact.

CYA was alright. Will definitely miss the current CSOs. Nothing gold can stay after all.

Met Kayne at airport today. AJ choir carolled there. It was nice! Wonder if VJ and TJ choir will be carolling at airport too? Hope so, then i can go say hi to C and YY. lol

Tomorrow going bladding with chris. Please don't rain!

Wed working again, and i haven complete a lot of holiday tasks! sigh. Frantically trying to earn money to ensure my allowance don't run dry during this festive season.

I feel like taking up vocal training with a proper trainer. But its expensive! And i still want a labtop. Too many wishes that will never come true. I'll stop dreaming i guess. No. I don't deserve to dream in the first place.

-speechless- just take me away

2006-12-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

I'm home!!

For the past two days, work was so hectic and long.

Saturday, i barely slept few hours after Friday night's work, met up with cousins at cineleisure. As me and my brothers over slept, we had to flag a taxi down which made us nearly penny-less.

If i'm not wrong, we have not met each other for more than 10 years! It may be because of our parents conflict with one another, but we are determined not to let that affect our cousin relationship. yeah!

Hui Ying jie jie hasn't really changed. Xiu Ying has changed quite fair bit. As for Wei Xiang, oh man..i tell you i could barely recognise him. haha.. but we sure did enjoy our first outing in a decade. We went kbox, and i tell you Hui Ying jie jie's voice is FANTASTIC!

Later on, we went to play arcade. Table hockey literally made us sweat out in joy. We also played para para, daytona & arm wrestling. Eventually we played LAN even and the girls seem to like it. =D

After the day's outing, i went straight for work at Ritz. Damn low morale that day. I was so pissed off by my group member and michelle's brother that i nearly wanted to gan them. First, my group member by the name of paul who has only worked 3 days, is a one big SLACKER. macham everybody slogging hard and he's just there pretending to work. Disregarding this point even, he got me into hot soup by serving muslim food to chinese; leaving the muslims without food! I had already warned him several times because prior, he already made a similar mistake by serving to wrong table. So, as group leader, my managers 'f' me.

Then, while doing OT, this guy who's michelle's brother is one hell of a 'mf'. Bloody hell, he only work for 3 weeks at the most and he's bossing his way around and irritating every nerve in his radius. If not for michelle, we lao jiaos sure hong gan him like mad already. I was in-charge of tidying furniture store and houseman Alan told him to follow me. In the end he tried to act pro(ge kiang) push a truck of tables into a wrong position when i told him not to. Sucker you know...i had to do DJ(double job) by re-arranging everything. Push his luck some more and i assure you when my patience run out he's going to get it from me.

Anyway, yesterday's Ot was till 4.30am. So one could suspect how shag i was.

I slept till 1pm today and then had my lunch and went down straight to work again from 3pm - 2am. Today was far better than the two previous days. Morale was pretty good since more lao jiaos were back. Very slack too as it was 7 people serving 10 guests.

Yap so that's the summary for all. I'm too lazyto upload the photo of outing with cousins. Maybe i'll do so when i'm dying of boredom.

For now, i shall sleep. Wan an. =)

2006-12-16T02:39:00.000+08:00

Can't believe why i'm blogging at this unearthly hour?

Well that's because i just came back from work. Apparently i'm known as the PE of Ritz Banquet nowadays only because of a tiny weeny mistake a made nearly a month ago. By the way, PE stands for 'Public Enemy'. Thus, i was not chosen for the 2.30am OT. Only granted till 1am which is considered quite lucky since others wasn't even placed as 1am OT. Nonetheless i am disappointed.

Anyway just had my bath. Today was 1010pax of chinese dinner. D&D of Deloitte. My group members were alright. Just rather blur and skiving at times but perhaps its my expectations being too high as group leader. My buddy Yi Chao never work today so i was in low morale. To 'add salt to wound' i found myself in a sea of strangers! Nearly all the staff today were new and cocky. Sigh. Wonder if service can ever change for the better...

Sort of injured my neck an right arm i think. Perhaps its the way i carried the tables and chairs. never mind. Should be minor problem. Tomorrow and sunday still working so pray hard that nothing big pops up regarding this injury.

Every now and then, i would start to think...
missing her...everyday...
but silently....never letting anyone know.
cuz i'm afraid of the outcome if she knew
and a catastrophe might result?

Argh i'm getting way too emotional again. Must get a grip. How i wish i could sing the song 'Two Less Lonely People In The World' as if it were my life. -reverie-

Hmm..something just struck my mind. It was a real incident. And it goes like this: This Mon during my CYA. If my memory recall, at around 9pm, a fatal accident nearly occured when kids could not control the luggage trolley. The luggage trolley that was loaded with bags, there were kids playing on it with a little girl trying to manage the trolley but it was on the travellator downslope. And guess what? The trolley burst forward and crashed into the glass. Thankfully no kid fell from that height. I know my description is bad and its hard to imagine but if you want to know more about the whole story can always look me up and i'll share it with ya.

Today's F&B test..well, what can i say. Let result speak for itself i suppose.

okiez. 11am-2pm, shall be going for Kbox session at marina square with cousins. So i'd better move my lazy bottoms off and tuck myself in bed. Can't imagine if i sang like a croaking frog tomorrow. haha. But i don't sound nice anyway. Yeah i'll set alarm at 9am. Cannot afford a piggish Woon Jiun for now. lol

she loves me? she loves me not?

2006-12-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

My poor little toes. Those devilish in-grown toe nails are toturing my little toes! So..i plucked them out! ..and they bled and bled =(

Alright. 2 down, 1 more to go. Shall cotinue mugging my F&B later on. For now, i must rest..head's already spinning. Was so jittery last night that i could hardly catch a good sleep.

A summary of today's test. Macroeconomics was my first paper of the day and surprisingly it was manageable! However my failing memory caused me to draw the last digram wrongly. Automatic Fiscal Stabiliser graph should be curve, but of course, my stupidity got the better of me and i drew straight-line graphs!!!

Ugh

5h after the paper i went for my Principles of Management. MCQ was alright, but.. there was one question which cost 6 marks..and i'm very sure i scored zero for it. The paper is only upon 40. Oh man, i think i can say goodbye to my grade.

I'm not pinning any more hopes on F&B to be frank; even a pass would send me rocketing through my roof with joy. Nonetheless it is one of my core subject so i can't afford to fail it too badly. Have to really put in a lot of effort for my F&B project to pull up the grade.

I Just Want That ONE Star:

If fate spells a second chance for us

I will never let go of U again

..but will U mind my past..

2006-12-13T04:17:00.000+08:00

Air Supply - Two Less Lonely People In The World

I was down my dreams were wearing thin
When you're lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way
Then you smile and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched I knew that there would be

CHORUS
Two less lonely people in the world And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can't believe you're mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now there's two less lonely people in the world Tonight
Just to think what I might have missed
Looking back how did I exist

I dreamed still never thought I'd come this far
But miracles come true, I know 'couse here we are

Tonight I fell in love with you
And all the things I never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby, love is here and now there's

CHORUS

Downloaded the song and found the lyrics at last. Indeed its a nice song! =)

Alright this is an unearthly hour right before my test. Better go back to bed to try to sleep again.

missing U

I Just Want that One Star

2006-12-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

In the end, i sat there in dreams..waiting..but with no more regret.

A long and tiring day at the airport since 10am - 10pm. Quite productive i must say. Tomorrow shall be revising my final 2 chapters of Macroeconomics and POM again. CYA was quite fun.

but...

something was somewhat missing,

and this time i figured what it is..
therefore i have no more regrets even if my acts seemed foolish

cuz people do silly things, when they're in ~~love~~.

Enough said, its 1.11am now. Wish U received my silent blessings~

2006-12-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

Yes! I've completed my revision for Principles of Management. Shall be continuing with my dreaded F&B Fundamentals after i finish this entry.

Tomorrow shall be going down to airport to study from 10am onwards before going for CYA at 6-10pm. For convenience and cost savings purposes, i shall be studying at T1 burger king since i have coupons and my CYA venue is at T1 arrival which is where BK is allocated. Yep i'll be right there. =)

I cant help it...but are U feeling what i am feeling too?
or has it always been my mistake...

ROAR

Alright i better get back to study before my emotions overwhelm me.
Woon Jiun! STOP now, len jing yi xia..

Take care peeps! May you all have an enjoyable holiday! -vanish-

2006-12-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

Woke up to another melancholic morning. Mixed feelings shrouded me. Really wanted to just continue sleeping and pretend that everything was my dream. Nonetheless my rational part got the better of me and i found myself preparing to travel down to changi airport to study with christopher. Later did i realise that mei and silvia were there too! Glad to see you two.

Personally i felt the studying session today was quite productive for me today. However, tomorrow i'll be studying at home since there's no one to company. If anyone wants to study, just give me call yea? Home is after all never a good place for me to study.

Just now the few of us (me, mei, hris, silvia) were discussing of going to WWW next sat. Well i'm ok with it but wonder if they all can make it. As long as you are a choir peep from zhss once upon a time, or currently is, i suppose we welcome you to tag along. After all, the more the merrier and WWW is having discount at $6 per pax. So why not go have a good day splashing your troubles away? =)

This coming Christmas i've got lots of gifts to buy. Going to "pok" liao. haha.. but i feel its worth it because everyone that receives a gift from me, big or small, are special to me!

Alright, all i can do now is to pray wellness for everyone. My eyes are experiencing weight-lifting exercise now... tired la..lol. Good night den. mina-san, oyasumi nasai & otaijini~

2006-12-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

After 3 nights working on my marketing case study, its finally done and over with. Just praying that i won't fail, because i've exceeded the limit given by way too many pages. It goes like this : min 5, max 7. ..and my report was 10 pages!!!

Ugh

To think i could heave a relief that i can relax, but NO. Term test is just next week. Yes! and i haven started revising. So its like..'congratulations' Ang Woon Jiun. Just hate this feeling. The stress level is piling up but i'm not able to really get started. The sense of urgency seems to be surpressed by other forces.

Hopefully tomorrow when i meet chris to study at airport i can focus and really be productive. But my mind is so pre-occupied by worries of a friend that is attempting to do silly things. How? -sigh-

Nevermind. Maybe i'll just break down soon myself.

Just now met Jun Xian at serangoon central mac while studying. Had a fruitfull chat with him. Thanks for appearing at the right time. Haha... surely coincidence but definitely helpful.

After my term tests would be my 2 week holidays, but in actual fact its already fully packed with projects and quizes. So, = no life. But i still really look forward to it. Hoping to go Kbox with cheryl and yan yee and hopefully can get more people la. Want to celebrate xinling's birthday with Jun xian. Kbox too! Then owe a session with my TP choir senior. Kbox! wahahaha.. Besides,i will finally organise my beloved 603 class outing once more. Miss them so much! In addition, chris will be teaching me roller-blading, and Christmas!! yep, its just round the corner too! Will be exchanging gifts with many people. =)

Today i bought the 2007 horoscope book for my horoscope: Pices. Quite interesting facts. Some true but some not quite applicable.

Regarding helping zhss choir in next year's SYF, i gave some serious thoughts and decided i want to know the situation before extending my help. My concern is that what if i am not suppose to help and in the end i cause choir to be disqualified?? Will see again.

If i am to sum up my entire day, it could be done with just one word - STRESSED *plucks hair*

Thoughts racing through my head are:
Why must you do this?
What have i done?
When will everthing smooth out?
Where do i go in future?
How will a reverie come true?
Who can mend your broken heart?

I just hate myself. Perhaps tomorrow i can have the best reason to hate myself. What will you do in the end? haiz...i'm getting way too emotional. Hope everyone can cool down. Not just myself, but everyone out there too, who faces obstacles or setbacks. Even if i can't help, i won't let my friends fall, so just check me out if you need. yeah

what is Ur heart thinking? i hope to understand U

2006-12-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

Yippee... i've collected the Phantom tickets!! =)

Once again, i'm blogging in school. lol. Lesson is about to start in like less than 5min.

So yar, this is just like a 'statement' post. haha.. nothing more to say.

-wishing U were somehow here again, knowing that u never would. Dreaming of U...-

2006-12-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hah, can you believe it i'm blogging right in school now. Just had my breakfast. Earlier on had my role-play interview assesment whih takes up 15% of my entire coursework. i hope i faired alright.

Soon i'll be proceeding to LT for my POM lecture. Thereafter it'll be project and assignments to be done all the wy till night again. TP is becoming more like my home already. lol.

i pray that maybelyn will be fine after her hospital check up. she doesn't deserve bad fate. -sigh-

Thank you for your graciousness. It has finally ended.

i reminded myself..'it wasn't meant to be'

2006-12-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Some things change, but somethings never do.

I felt so guilty today. Never before had guilt strike me down so deep and hurting. But at least i planted the fullstop. Or did i not? i hope i did. and i hope u did too. sorry!

okie, miraculously i've summoned the determination to actually go friendster to type testimonial for people, as well as add photos and change a lil bit of my profile. haha.. so do check it out ;)

Just now downloaded a new anime entitled Black Blood Brothers. Once again without fail its about VAMPIRES. my favourite!! wahaha its really action packed with considerable graphics and drawing and most importantly is that the storyline is gd. Pretty funny too. Highly recommended. Only 12 episodes so hurry.

My coming 2 weeks break in end dec i shall be meeting chris to learn bladding from him. His skills are simply awesome.

And i can't wait to watch the Phantom of the Opera!! Going to book it tomorrow. Father just came back from Vietnam tour so let him settle down today first. If not ask sure tio gan. but now no more discount ler. -sobs-

Lately i've taken the craving for japanese food, as in those side dishes. Must try must try. heh. kk..off i go to slp. nid some rest. Realli tired today. nite~

2006-12-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

ni ying gai fei de
by: zhang xin zhe, jeff

xiang ai de tu zhong man man yi shi le shen mezui chu de gan dong dao le zui hou mei jie guo
yue nu li yue you wu li de gan shou
wo men ye zhi hao xiao de hen ji mo

pa wei bei cheng nuo mian qiang yi qi cai shi cuoye xu ni deng de shi wo fang kai ni de shou
qing ren bu yao de jiu suan gei zai duo
ye bu shi wen rou zhi shi chen zhong

ni ying gai fei de bie guan wo
hao yi han wo mei you ni yao de cai hong
ke shi wo yuan yi wei ni cong ci bian cheng feng
chui gan ni chi bang qian wang yuan fang de tian kong

ni ying gai fei de bie ku le
shui zhi dao yi hou wo bu hui xing fu ne
you shi hou fen shou bu shi shui ba shui diu le

___________________________________

2006-12-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

Les Miserables by VJ Choir - Simply an awesome display of near perfection.

Looking forward to going for their next concert next year May. Its entitled Symphony of Voices. Was told they are celebrating their 20th aniverasary, and they'll be singing 20 songs, one from each year? Sounds good.

Awaiting TJ Choir performance next year May too! More importantly i really wish to watch the phantom of the opera musical coming March-April. Hope got people company me.

So nice of Cheryl's parents to fetch me back just now. Really thank you! And my Jeremy was sweet just now.
SMS: "can u give me cheryl's number. i want to wish her a belated birthday"
haha... my bao bei gel his hair summore wor...can u believe? =p

Just now DiDi sleep halfway woke up and vomitted everywhere. Poor chap. As always, i dang jia so have to clean up everything which suggests y i'm still up at this hour blogging. Hope he feels better tmr.

I'm still in not much mood to get started with revision and projects.
you said you'd free me...will u???

By the way i also wana announce i've changed my hp alas. Its Nokia 6280. So happy lor i tell u... Its the dream phone i've longed for. With all the functions available and a stylish flip concept. The best thing is i got the thing entirely free as M1 rewarded me with a $150 voucher for being their customer. Besides this phone also comes with a free HP printer. I only paid $55 for a 1G memory card + adaptor.

I need my friends and mentors. I want music to fill my life. I don't want love anymore.

Haiz...my illness haven recover fully yet. Tomorrow still need to work thanks to my 'broke' state. zi zuo nie
:(

Alrights shall go sleep now. tomorrow have to force myself to revise and do project. Oyasumi-nasai~

2006-12-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

Thank you for freeing my soul.
Sorry for all the destruction i've caused.

But dreams are dreams.
Mistakes were never meant to be forgiven.
The past was never suppose to be revertted.

Yet i continue my reverie.
Light the light.

-Crusnik 02-

Alright, now's past 2 in the morning already. Not done with my things. Think will go bath at 3 and sleep by 3.30am.

Tomorrow will be attending Cheryl's choir performance at VJC. Yay! Can meet up with YY, Chris, Jeremy and many other friends! I'm getting sooo excited.

Ok goodness me...get a hold of myself. hah

For the past 3 days i had been going through probably the worst times of my life thus far. must apologise to the person, and also thank the same person. Well, at least now i'm feeling much better. MUCH.

Today my choir luncheon performance in school..was really an utter disappointment. We were the only CCA group that screwed up while showcasing to the sec4s who could be potential TP freshies.

I love singing, and i love choir. Even though people are different, can't some people just put in a little more commitment, passion, seriousness??? I almost wanted to storm out from the choir this afternoon after the dreaded peformance. Cassandra and joan were equally upset. sigh. I don't mean we take failures negatively, but don't take it so lightly can??

Oh anyway, did i mention i've not taken my dinner? oops...

Kk shall fullstop right here. ciao

is there a future that i can hold?

2006-11-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

Sinner's Regret:

A mistake..that should never have been forged.. and now a Sinner is born far beyond redemption

Love above Responsibility?
Self above Others?
Emotion over Logic?
Desire over Consequence?

..to walk a cursed life of solitude and eternal condemnation.

-Crusnik 02-

2006-11-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

"tatax..i'm back, and its 'bloGspot radio' live right here at Khuzanage-nqxg.blogspot.com . I'm Woon Jiun. Welcome back to prime-time Mid-Night!"

Kays...Its been a cold day today with temperature ranging from 21-28 degree celsius. Please carry an umbrella if you are out and don a jacket. traffic is smooth flowing.

Latest news state that Genting has a likelyhood of winning the IR bid due to certain political factors.

Now we proceed for a short commercial break.

Hahs!

alright i'm more sick den i thought. thanks alot to the rain this whole day. couldn't attend CYA thus and even had to spend $9 to see the doc for a second round of antibiotics. ugh

I'm so broke. and tomorrow is my Commsk2 test. gosh. i haven't even really covered anything. and there's marketing and POM project to rush by next week.I think shall be burning these nights despite my detiororating health. (pardon my spelling)

Yesterday's zhss choir bbq at pasir ris was pretty enjoyable disregarding the 'tears of barbequeing' lol. hmm..but wonder when juniors will wake up their attitudes. i mean the sec 1&2 and some sec 3 too! sec 4s none turned up..which was quite sad. graduates only me and cheryl..and later on huitian and shi ying. as usual i'm never spared interogation from huitian and shiying. Lots of thanks to Chris, Mingying, Cheryl And Jeremy for helping the bbq. I would not have enjoyed it as much w/o your company. miss the past...dreamt of an old reverie...

Today i was such a sleepy head....slept in lec...continued sleeping in tutorial... coz the med made me so drowsy. stupig doc. never cure me but made me more sick.

Well well, nth more to crap now...and we shall be back to Prime-time Midnight.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wandering child, so lost so helpless..
yearning for some guidance.
..but its past the point of no.. re..turn...?

2006-11-20T15:31:00.000+08:00

Suo wei "Deng Dao Hua Er ye Xie Liao" ... my blog posts depicts exactly i suppose.. haha

Well then, i'll provide a summary..and so it goess..
-My mid-term holidays was a whopping 7 months long!
-As usual, worked at Ritz after IMF. $$$
-Hardly studied for my re el o-level -.-
-Went back zhss choir a few times only coz they having eoy :(
-Had my own tp choir prac 3 times a week. -shag-
-Some outings. =)

..school reopened.. :
*Still class rep* -wah xi beh stress-
*Took part as Changi Youth Ambassador* -love it .psst. i can get DFS gds 4 u!-
*1 MORE sub this sem* -help muee-
*Took my re el o-level paper2* -dunno..-
*TP Choir Concert* -okok la-
*Still working once a week at Ritz* -duhz-

..present.. :
~Tests & Project due coming!!!~ -siao liaoz-
~Attended Mediacorp 938 Live~ -mind intriguing but not much use-
~Attended Zhss Music & Movement Night~ -Excellent-

..to come.. :
+VJC Concert+ -yipee can see bamboo in action-
+Will be helping Zhss Choir for next year's SYF+ -shhh-
+ZHSS Choir BBQ+ -how will it turn out?-
+With Jun Xian, take Xin Ling out+ -When will we find time?-
Yupyapyup. tt's the brief.
okie dockie... now lets take a look at this discussion topic "Young Singaporeans do not have the competitive edge on the global arena. What is your stand?"
pls share your comments...i'd like to see what our very own singaporeans think.
My stand howevr is that young singaporeans may be skilled in many ways that outshine many other people, but having a competitive edge is really still rather lacking. i'm not saying we will never have it, but we must really work hard. The stubborn mentality must be removed as singaporeans should take on a more adaptive approach and not be afraid to perform things even if it may be "unlawful". Singaporeans must also be less arrogant and see more of the world.

Alright i gtg revise again. Stay tuned. ;)

2006-09-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

guess wad? ...

My Mid-Year exams are over!!! =D

whoa its a great relieve to my stress level.

but i doubt the results will be good, nonetheless i've tried my best.

hmm..just a week or two ago, i re took my el o-level oral and i think i didn't do that well. sigh..but nvm...hopefully the written this coming nov i can perform better. i realli hope to get a b3 at least.

Yesterday was teachers' day, so to all my beloved teachers all my life, a big HAPPY TEACHERS" DAY to all of you and thanks so much for all that you all have done in my life. Love you all!

On thu went back to zhss only coz last paper so no time go back pri sch. I missed my pri sch teachers and friends so much too! but it was really heartwarming when i met up wif the good old sec sch friends and teachers. missed ya all u know??? but by the time i reach already most teachers and friends gone liao.

Yesterday i worked with ritz an it was an Outdoor Catering (OC) event at the ISTANA. hehe...how many ppl can get the chance to go in? :p well, it was a super long day...the event was for the president teachers' award or some sort. i met my pri 6 form teacher mrs teh!! haha.we had a gd chat n then i aso saw my pri sch ex principle, n aso zhss teacher mdm liang. haha..i didn't expect her to be nominated though.. =P i started wk from 10am all the way till 4am...so exhausted.

IMF is starting soon for me.

busy schedule ahead...hmm..to list a few: Choir, Gatherings, Ritz...blahs

so long farewell, i'm going to play game ler...wahahaha

2006-08-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

The last 3 weeks...were simply hell life. Think JC is no life? think twice about coming to poly if you think you are going to slack off and do well.

If anyone even wants just an average result, hard effort is everything. I don't mean mugging, or loads of hw. In poly there isn't much hw. Only some tutorials here and there which all hv a grace of 1 week to complete. so, the killing part is actually none other than... PROJECTS!

Yeah. as it is, projects nearly drowned me for the alst 3 weeks. a brief intro to wad i was enduring...well, i had 3-4 sleepless nights each week. i mention again, 3-4 sleepless nightsw each week. n the other nights are no better. projects were due after projects...gosh...n my group members mostly...not sucky..but dont hv the rite attitude..n i tell u i really suffered so...haiz..but thankfully its over.

Now u all understand y i hv not been bloggign for sucha long long time? heh

neway lately is anime craze for me again...fancying black cat and fate-stay night. n i spend so much on accessories at comic connections with 905 of my buyings on my favourite anime trinity blood. cool! u should see wad i've got. haha..cnt wait for the movie trinity blood genesis to be released. hmm.. n jus few days back i found this great website that had all the stories and background of trinity blood. whoa. i love that web.

on this mon i had my commsk summative test..guess was quite alright...today had bcs test too..n turned out alright too. phew. at least can pass but i noe my GPA this time round wnt be as gd as mid sem ler...hai..bo bian...alot thx to my projects that pulled me down. dowan to memtion anymore...

yup..neway...got a secret..but shall not reveal so openly yet. another thing is i will be working at the upcoming IMF and World Banking meeting at Suntec. This is a very high-end event and is the biggest event ever in singapore with over 1600 delegates from all over the world. and i must confess i am one of the lukiest souls around to be selected for this event, n further more handpicked to servethe G8 ppl. know who they are? they are biggest shot in this event so yea it will be totally my nohour to serve them. haha...

Gems training have been great to help me improve my service standards. i wana impress those ppl who decides the world's economy. ;) alrite enuf said..many sad things have happen to y frens recently...n sick season seems tro be back so pls take gd care.

coming yr end i will be performing in tp choir so pls support..as for zhss choir..i will see how by yr end hopefully start a youth alumni choir or my own acapella group. shall be joining a group of syc ppl in carroling acapella n choral songs yr end too. so very eventful yr for me i suppose.

on the last note, ndp was just over n ms mccully n ms cheong u 2 did another great job once more..csc this yr was gd! hehe... well done! actualli felt quite emotinal while watching..coz realising this will be the last yr ndp at national stadium n it held so many memories for me... misss all my ndp leaders n frens. miss so many ppl... n do wish me luck for my coming exam on the last week of this month. tts all. tatax! =)

2006-07-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

WTH!!!

What is the World Cup w/o Brazil?!

Did anyone even imagined Brazil crashing out of the FIFA World Cup before even reaching the semi-finals?

Its a big upset to many, as France once again made themselves the team jinx to Brazil, as we had last seen in the 1998 World Cup. The 5 times World champions -Brazil was knocked out today morning(singapore timing)by France in only the quarter-finals with the defeat score of 1-0.

With the likes of Ronaldo, Ronaldinho, Kaka, Robinho, Carlos, Cafu, Lucio, Lenon, Silva and the many many other star players of the world, Brazil is unanimously the favourites of winning their 6th World Cup champion in Germany this 2006.

But millions were silenced in the last match when On-form Zidane crossed magically to Henry of France whom scored against Dida from Brazil. Lagging one goal, Brazil switched from 2 defenders, to one defender and the last 20min they were playing only midfielders and strikers. Yet, they were playing poorly in comparison to what they are truly capable of with only Lenon, Carlos & Lucio in particular performing alright. Ronaldinho failed to produce enough magic and Kaka and Ronaldo could not find their scoring touch.

It was a spectacular match to see how great the brazillians' skills were, but the pain of seeing them leave was still justified for France did play fair and square and Zidane in particular whom eventually won man of the match.

Most boring match was between that of England and Portugal. there's only one word for me to describe the entire game play "Kelong!!!!"

Nvm. Well, now that Brazil is out there's really nothing much more to me to pursueing the World Cup.

Hmm... School has reopened for a week now and projects are still piling high but now coping better. And i've also received 2 out of my 5 mid-sem tests results. For Organisational Behaviour which i quite like but didn't really study, somehow i managed a 24.5/30. As for Commsk, i merely attained 33/50.

Life on the whole is progressing alright to me. Yupz. I miss many people. MANY.

Yesterday was my off day. It was so hard to come by days where i can now set aside fully. So, i met up with 2e1 friends and we played soccer all day long and then at night went to Wai Meng's house to watch the World Cup quarter-finals only to be disappointed. But the day was really great on the whole only tiring to mount on.

Today i kept dozing off during religion and almost anywhere else too as i had only taken a one and half nap.

Tmr is schooling again and then i should be meeting Ritz colleague Lian Yin to watch Just My Luck. haha..wonder if it's nice? yeah! Upcoming week i'll also be working on thu 6pm, fri and sun 5.30pm. Money is still in demand for now so i have no choice but the strain some more of my health. Just praying i don't fall ill. So long, that's all. Take care peeps!

2006-06-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog...

Few reasons, but mainly due to lack of topix to write as well as busi schedule wif my poly mid-sem tests jus ended.

alas, my precious 2 weeks of holidays hv begun. which aso means gotta work at ritz more.

Regarding tests performance i tink i faired only passable results.

Anyway, FIFA World Cup 2006 has kicked off. i hope Brazil wins.

Lately i've aso composed my first eva song..couldn't believe i could do such a thing. hah..but its for oni someone ;)

Alright..shall blog more soon. Take care!

My insanity, Myself

2006-05-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Watashiwa Crusnik!!

I have sworn to repent my sins.

Never to kill again.

Otaijini mina-san

My broken wings shall dance in the dress of blood.

Contra Mundi.

raising operation to 40%... acknowledg!

Bokuwa a being who needs nothing, and therefore needs everything.

Crusnik 02 pleased to meet you.

2006-05-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

Whoa!! VJC Symphony of voices at Esplanade(Theatres by the Bay) on tue was... Totally awesome and inspiring. Their harmonious and splendid voices accompanied by the slick movements and kawaii choreography spilled laughters throughout. Well done! I truly enjoyed myself and my soul was emmersed within.

The seating we had wasn't that gd but cnt help it la coz nt so rich so can oni buy $21 one but it was definitely still value for money i muz say. Cheryl, we are all so proud of you!! yeah you were so pretty and performed really well! hahas.. keep it up! :)

That day, also got to meet many other zhss choir members including mei n my fellow crusnik. So glad. Had a really gd chat with chris..hope he's better. rem i'm alwiz dere for u manz. Stayed out till pretty late..but haha.. i'm alwiz lidat ain't i?

Hmm, neway ppl outdere, MI3 isn't really that cool as it may perceive. felt cheated on my $$.. :(

Fri i went back zhss get O-Level cert. Its nt nice..first letter is a C!!!! cry la. Choir trip was soso. but mac time was pretty fun. ahaaha..n guess wad? met jx!! yippee!! but xl is still as mysterious as eva. gdness..lol

Sat was at home whole day and today's SiQi's Birthday!! so Zhu ni Shen Ri Kuai Le!!! ^^

Today while at tpy mos aso bumped into xl n jn..haha..their first day of wk a mos worx..so funni..but they realli fast learners..li hai!! hee...so jiayou to u 2.

Tmr sch again..drading..coz got commsk1 writting test. N i'm nt ready. jus hope can pass.

So, that's all. Now tt i've tidied up the rm..can enjoy my comfy bed. tatax..nie nitez! zzz

2006-05-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

Poly life is really getting more n more hectic by the day. Not much hw lik i said b4, but i tell u, projects, online quizes, n admin stuffs r choking the air outta me. Guess i really made the right choice nv take up cca though i wanted to. i tink c hw in 1st yr, mayb 2nd yr when used to poly lifestyle will join choir! yay!

Hmm.. quite broke ler..coz hp bill is $119!!! wna cry. summore ez-link card aso haven get. everydae hv to spend $5 lidat on travel. haiz..

Nowadays bu wk shi bu xing de..but aso no time.. n now down wif sickness. sobs. hope nt dengue.

Tmr cheryl's J choir performance at the esplanade. So hapi can go peng chang. Then can aso mit up wif mei, alan, xl, ivy.. i miss ya all so much!

Nvm..though hectic life, i shall look on da bright saide..tt holidays are round the corner! cheers! this fri shall go back zhss..wonder if jac, cheryl, yy r free? den sun bian get o-level cert. haha..

Ok tatax tts all. take care folks n meanwhile i'll be praying for your fast recovery. :)

2006-05-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

Awesome!! Did you see the polling results of our country's 2006 general elections??

Chiam See Tong(55.84% showed an increase compared to previous 52.43%) and Low Thia Khiang(62.74% showed an increase compared to previous 54.98%), each opposition leaders of the respective parties: SDA and Worker's Party, won in Potong pasir and Hougang. Sylvia Lim also managed to display a great deal of support for her in the Aljunied contested area. In Ang Mo Kio, the 'gan si dui' si de yi dian dou bu nan kan. Perhaps its time for reflection yea?? Come on, i simply can't wait for the next general election to come so that i may use my rights to vote into power those who are sincere. As some might have read, right after the results were released, National Development Minister Mah Bow Tan said OPPOSITION WARDS TO REMAIN AT BACK OF UPGRADING QUEUE. i go like wow?!!! So this is what PAP is like? ...once they are elected? Turning their backs on Sigaporeans just because they are in favour of the opposition more? Come on..i felt really disappointed when i read this article on TODAY. I'm not convinced at all about the fairness of the policy. Perhaps in the next election, citizens in the constituents that are 'walked-over' should be given a chance to vote in other constituencies to be truly democratic as we can then see if the people really give a strong mandate to the PAP.

Alright, enough of political issues. Lets talk about my 2 weeks in tp now.. hmm ok i'm chosen class rep.. stress sia.. but i quite like all my modules(in total 6!!!). chers are mostly fine. Lessons can start as early as 9am and end as late as 6pm. School food is soso i feel. still quite blur with the compound. and bloody hell, my ez-link kna retain. now so troublesome need to pay so much and use COINS!!! sux! nvm..hope to get my concession done asap. haiz..

Hw not alot, but projects are pretty much. and i'm still working at Ritz Carlton so quite tiring too. I'm still newbie at DOTA. haha.. eh..i've not decided if i should join any 'cca' in poly and which one to join too coz time is so precious. And i miss many ppl. 603, 2e1, mac, ndp, 4e5, choir... but so busy.

..._U'll be in my heart, no matter what they say. U'll be here in my heart. ALWAYS!*~

2006-04-23T18:59:00.000+08:00

TP Rox!! Rox the world like no others. wahahahax! The orientation was totally cool! the Tp spirit was high in the air. HTM though didn't win the best diploma award in our business sch, but i simply love my course and the people. Business sch rawks..we won the overall champion again worx. "business has won the war!"
Thu n fri realli had fun n cheer till loss of voice. hehe.. n i was aso nominated class rep. quite stressful but i'll do my best for H11. :)

Today bu xi ban quite gd. but i fever until veri bad. sobs. -prays-

Kk..nt feeling well again le. update more nxt tym. takkairs!

2006-04-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

Oh Yesh! Alas.. school is starting for muee!!! woot toots! Yahoo!!

alrite i'm nuts. hahaha...don mind me. =Pp

Hmm..tmr shall wake up at 6..leave hse latest by 6.45..den take 153 dwn to tpy..change to 8 to TP. hope got ppl i noe. wonder if the orientation is fun? -prays-

Today was a g8 day to me. duno y? too bad. wahahahax
Glad siqi sch stuff can song yi kou qi le..realli hapi for her. aso congrats to cheryl n her choir in the italy competition.

Last 2 days wk at ritz until half zombie le..lol..imagine slp oni 2h..n b4 that 3 days aso hardly slp. gosh. ~bleahx~ sickness almost fully recovering le. yay! but i got injured again. nvm. will be mroe careful nxt tym.

Hmm..take care everyone! nitez. zoooms.......... ^^

2006-04-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

Elections are round the corner... sad to say..i'm not 21 yet! argh...
So, i can cast away the troubles of taking votes anyway. haha

Lately i'm down with a bad throat and flu, which then led to my feverish symptoms. -sigh- guess many ppl i noe r down with sickness too. muz take care ah...
Here's a list of things to do to keep u healthy or recover faster. :)
1. Drink lots of water
2. Sleep enough but not too much
3. Exercise regularly(provided u r not sick)
4. See a doctor when conditions don get well or worsen
5. Keep your environment ventilated
6. Be cautious with the food you take so that it might not worsen the condition
7. Have a balanced diet
8. Smile, laugh and stay calm so that ur mood is better

That's all i think. lolx!

Last fri was ZHSS sports day but i couldn't make it. sorrie wor to those i've made a pact to turn up. I went back zhss choir lately. some probs stirring..but i hope after the discussions things will smooth out and choir will turn out better. -hopes-

Anyway, my poor right foot is still in pain. Only to blame myself the other day chat with my colleague while supporting a 5ft round table and the table slipped and landed on my feet. guess i've mentioned this earlier yea? i hope the veins n nerves can recover in a month. But now got injury in left foot..my usual in grown toe nail i plucked it out once more. bleed alot. :(

I've been self medicating my fever, flu n throat. Under control i can say..but don seem to be recovering much.

Yesterday my first time Dian Fo Deng and Participate in xian Gong. Coz of my overdose panadol last time, side effect of hand shaking, Fu Tang Zhu tot i very nervous..haha...abit only la..but tts aso oni during Xian Gong. :p brought back alot of food.. family helped themselves while watching the recently hong dong de Da Chang Jin.

Today i din go out. Rest at home. Watch my newly bought serial Fei Tian Wu. Very nice worx.. and also i did drawing. shhh..its a secret. hehe.. u await my master piece ba... ^^

Everything's normal so far... yet i cried just now. haiz. hmm..nvm. Tomorrow i don tink i going anywhere aso, coz no plans yet. oni know that i've got to wake up latest by 9 to gib someone wake up call. hahahaha...

Thu shall be studying el. Sat got wk leh i jus realise..so mayb cnt meet sq & ch for exercise le. wonder if wed can pei wo exercise instead? besides, next weekend rem got to meet wanli? i doubt sun can coz got bu xi ban ma..so sat i tink den can. i wk at 5.30pm so morning till early noon still available. see how bah.

Its a cold day today, peeps, do gai bei wor..don ltr catch a cold like me n suffer. Last night was a starry night...but i know nothing gold can stay. Indeed, even to the point of no return, then i realise my reverie will never come true. i'll treasure what's remaining and leave when the time comes.

kk bu suo shao xing de hua. But hor, i tink i've been marked by ritz due to my spillage in a previous event. sobs. now they don give me so much wk despite i'm still recognised as a capable worker. suan le..hope after some time will revert back to normal. Anyway, i've bought Chen Wei Lian's zhun ji..and it rox! realli nice! muz listen hor..hee...especially to Wo Zi Shi Xiang yao, Ai Hen Nan, Chu Mo, Gu Dan De Ye Li Wo bu Gu Dan, Huo Cai Tian Tang, Heaven Knows, Qi Shi Ni Bu Dong Wo De Xin. :D

I miss 603 family, 2E1 buddies, NDP'04 leaders, ZHSS chers & frens, my mei...and U. Remember i'm just a call away. ;) ~BlEsSiNgS~ Take Care!

2006-04-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

Donald Duck Rox!!! yup yap yup. hehe..
Someone knew i like this cranky disney character n got me stickers. yay! thanks alot.
okok i noe i'm childish. But i really like this duck's mischief n jokes.

Hmm.. neway, i muz apologise to my fellow 2E1'02 friends coz i wnt be able to make it on coming 13th april for the class bbq coz i hv religion. realli miss u peeps. nvm..i'm sure we can alwiz meet up again at sentosa yea? :p

TP as officially accepted me as their student le. Juz that my carelessness in handling one of the forms bounced back. i was suppose to hv submitted my dads bank bk photocopy..but instead i submitted my own. stupig muee. haha.. so ltr shall go get it dine when my parents return frm thei thailand trip. wonder if they got zhen jing gan qing. -hopes-

These 2 days dang jia again quite sianz...didi very luan lai. i this week will be working rits on thu 9am n fri 4.30pm. muz save up b4 sch reopens on 20th april. my target is to save up $120.
But hor, when i tink of how many things i feel like buying..such as chen wei lian's album, campus superstar album, new bag, comics, nmmost of all FOOD & DRINKS...i feel realli poor. gotta learn how to control my insatiable apetite. oops

Life these days hv been going up n down. but i nv regret anithing as yet. jus sometimes realli sorrie wadeva i unintentionally said or did that hurt ppl. pls forgive me.

Yesterday was Mei's birthday..din ge to see her personally to gib her prezzie..so me n chris decided to merge our gifts. hehe..happi guessing. oya..it was eli's birthday too! got see her but coz too sudden 4got to wish her hapi bdae personally. oni sent her sms.

Regarding religion stuff..i tink i understanding more le..but still realli hope to learn more n faster. i noe i too xin ji mayb but tts me leh. anyway tt day first day be jiao dao yuan i'm quite hapi i tink i managed to help my tutee. shall be seeing them again this coming sun.

Eh, anybody watch Rang Ai Zi You? who u wan the gal to be wif in the end???
Well well, Zhi Yang won the campus superstar n i support him as he truly is well deserved. Theresa is gd too but Zhi Yang realli has talent in singing.

I dearly nid exercise le..i realise i so long nv proper exercise body realli nt fit sia. i wna gym! i wna swim! n coming sat nid to rem to pay $147 for re-take el o-levels. Muz study el..but time so difficult o coordinate wif maybelyn. haiz. but sat can look forward coz should be meeting wanwan our jie mei. wahahahaz..maybelyn u muz rem contact her hor! (,") den we shall gib her our prezzie. sobs n i will hv to yan xi again. poor grizzly...

Later when i see my hp bill i tink i gna cry le..sure explode like mad. haiz. another financial burden. argh. nvm. but i realli wna change plan to get student plan loh. all coz of bloody rigid parents dunno how to let me pass my present plan to didi so i can apply student plan n save cost for everyone. sux la. neway if i shen qing student plan most prob i'll use back Starhub service coz it s per second billing.

Hmm...i tink this entry pretty long ler n i aso dunno wad more to say. is anyone seeing stars? haha..i'm crapping. lolx! takkairs ppl~ =)

2006-03-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

Sorrie to someone. For causing discord in the family. Sometimes i really wonder if i'm a jinx. haiz...

Toady n tmr de outing to www n escape has been cancelled. sobs. but can oni blame myself. -abish-

sat i wking ritz from 10am onwards.

Guess this week left sun to look forward to. shall be giving tuition i tink..den learn el as well as go gym. hope everything turns out fine.

lately i bought guang liang's latest album: yue ding. very nice!!! hehe..
i aso bought only u de ost. rawks!

Alas i hv aso settled my poly stuffs n updated my passport photo too. i wish dat april will mark a better month.

i can onli look towards to a bleak future.......
nqxg u

2006-03-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

WTH

I cannot go to my poly now...

...

Coz i failed my medical checkup!!!

No defects or any sort..but, jus bcoz i had been to imh b4..they tink i'm mad!!!

Can anyone believe that???!

So now i'm trying to get a report from my doc..to certify i'm perfectly well.

Haiz..

Anyway i shall be updating my passport photo soon.

This week no more working RC. nxt week chi yi dian den bk. hehe..

Hmm.. nxt week confirm will go www le..coz if not... Maybelyn, the promotion will EXPIRE!!! hahax

Lately i've been alrite. Haven turn into mould don worry peeps. My sch at TP , tts if my medical check-up finally approves, shall start on 20th April. Looking n praying that all goes well.

This sun shall be an early n long dae for muee. Even more wo qi wang april de lai lin. can play april fools worx.. childish me. heh

Alrite, i shall be gg le... be back to update soon...Fat hope! =Pp

2006-03-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

Next week WWW!! SPLASH yoohoo..haha..i'm looking forward to it! yapyupyap

I shall be applying re-take of EL O-Level this yr. So far i noe Si Qi and Fiona as well. So henceforth, every sun starting arpil i shall be prac EL wif SI Qi. haha..we study O's last yr tgt..this tgt again. :p In the earlier part of the day we will gib tuition to pri sch kids first. hehe..i wna do my best for them! :) i lub teaching ppl..when they do well i hv a great sense of achievement n satisfaction derhz. weirdo hor? hah..but tts me.

Hmm..i'm a happy soul... hahas. who knows?

Tmr shall be gg sentosa wif 4E7'05 ppl..hope wnt bore me to death. lols!

YY, thx for the Naruto Data Book. Frenz forever!

Wonder if this sun will start my first tuition session for the kids? Hope all goes well.

Neway i installed the new game i bought "Seal of Evil". Seems quite fun. But i doubt i'll be addicted. so nothing to wry.

Today another usual day. Haven return mac uni yet. but nvm tt one can wait. i woke up 8.30..brushed up..den chat on phone..nv better..haha..den ate lunch..den sms..den watch anime..den nap 2hrs..den wake up blur blur..slack awhile...cut hair.. den wry..den clean up com..fold stars...listen to boa's Overgrow CD.rox!

Eh..i suddenly cnt rem wad more to crap..so tatax! i blogged. byez.

2006-03-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hihi!! i know i've not updated for sometime...well many things happened.

Hmm..nvm..lets talk abt the IT fair at suntec. I went down on thu and it is really quite a big event. So tempted to buy all the electronics..but sobs...not enuf $$$ u noe?? i tot i save up $300 enuf but i was wrong coz i'd probably nid $3000 instead. lolx!

Had been working almost non-stop at Ritz the last week..now taking a break...

neway my hp bill is so ex..going to po chan if this continues..muz cut dwn..yap! imagine this mnth my bill came in costing $95.55!!! omg. hahas..lucky i save up the $300 now can put to use since i'm not really going to buy anithing from the IT fair except some cd-r n dvd-r.

Y i haven receive my TP enrolement package??? my fren anna receive hers from SP liao leh...slow la!

I'm looking forward to gg www soon. hehe... nxt week i gt wk though i nv book coz fizah(coordinator) frm ritz ask me wk on thu n sat, 5.30pm n 6pm respectively. nvm nid cash aso..if not cnt get the gift. ;) sun will be teaching sec2 ppl? hope i can cope n do my best for them. but onli 1 session hor? not veri sure leh..c hw ba..

Lately no time go back zhss to dou liu...pai seh ah peeps.

Xiao Qi, muz read the book wor... n uuu nid me to buy uuu a dozen of toilet rolls for uuu when uuu watch the luv story flick? =p

okok..gotta stop here le..coz gotta prepare to go wk liao..today wk brought forward to 5.30 instead of 6. byez. take care! ciao~ =)

2006-03-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

My day?

Marvellous!

Y?

Don't tell you..hehe..sshhhhh...

I slept at 3.45am. Wei le da shao jia li so that today VIP come will hv gd impression..muz feel honoured hor u.. =p

Den, i awoke at 7.45am to go marketing for ingredients in preparation for the scrumptious lunch in which i prepared my finest receipes. Hope you enjoyed!

So happy i win Xiao Qi in the award for the cutest person! hip hip hooray! wahahahax

Went srg central mac chit chat. Pray that some things turn out well for both my frens in their rela.

So hot today..melting like mad. drain all my energy n make me feel even more tired. oops don ask me to tuo diao. haha

Ok JAE posting results out..i entered Temasek Poly's Hospitality and Tourism Management. wish me luck!

Take care peeps... ciao =D

2006-03-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

Kays i was pestered by sm1 to blog... lols!
Well, you better remember your promise wor... blog with proper sentence structure and grammar. No "..." what so ever hor. No "yalor/hehe../haha" N do get a Vocabulary handbook. I'll pas you the novel tmr for you to start reading. MOre imptly, u must take care of ur health, take ur tonics and vitamins. Still keep saying u strong gal... ask me to fang xin..but u keep having those scary symptoms how i not wry? kk..enuf shao xing de hua le.

Neway my blog abit sot sot one..i dunno y..sometimes ok sometimes got prob. Do bear with it ok peeps? I'm not gonna change it ever again i tink. hehe..

Shall touch friendster ltr..hv not accessed it in a million yrs. haha..alrite i noe i'm exaggerating. Also nid to check up on moe webbie the registration for this yr's o level el. i'm re-taking. really not satisfied with my el results. Well, tmr is the JAE posting results release. guess i'll get into my course n poly i put as first choice. gd luck to all!

Today i din wk coz function at ritz cancelled. so i watched underworld evolution. its nice..but its rated M18 coz of the gore, blood, n some sex scenes. so lil kids out dere i'm afraid if u wna watch go buy pirated copies ba..heh. wad toking me? gosh..don sue me! =Pp

Actually now i really wish to start sch soon. Working is really tiring. but i've learnt much. ah, but one thing i'm pretty happy abt is that i've miraculously fang xia some things. :) yap yap

Hmm..tts all den. i lazy to blog more. tmr my off day. c hw ba.. Hope everyone will be xing fu kuai le. wo de zhu fu.

2006-02-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

Heez... See any difference? yap i've re-edited the layout and did some touch up to make it more presentable i hope. I simply love the song! Its titled "Broken Wings" and its the ending Theme for Trinity Blood anime.

Oh wells, Today Met up with Jun Xian at amk and we played pool for 3h. I'm sorry i very bad keep snatching luck from u today, if not u should win one...he let me de u see...
Its great to see u man..miss all the NDP'04 leaders!!! and, thx for the bd gift!

A very dreamy day for me due to my lack of sleep. Next week is WORK week for me. sobs... i'm working everyday except on fri. Hope tue can release early so can attend si qi the religion thingy. though i learn alot n quite fun but realli tiring sia.

My back so far so gd...never worsen but recovering very slowly..
Lately i've this addiction for Lin Jun jie songs... i tink i'm rather lag.

Time passes so quickly, in just another 5 days the posting results shall be out. Wonder if i'll get into TP Hospitality and Tourism Management?

Coming march holidays i've already got a few pending activities namely:
-603 gathering
-Mac Srg JB outing
-NDP leaders gathering

...which means i'd better work and save up enough. There are also many birthdays coming up so its time to shop for the right gifts. hehe..

Oya, i've officially resigned from mac le..after 3yrs 4mnths. Sigh... really a lil sad but i wnt turn back le. That lao wu gui..i wonder how long more can the crew tahan him.

Now i wana go swimming..very long never exercise liao..later become fei zhu how? cannot cannot..muz do smth abt it. -nods- budden when tink of swim i would wan to go jurong swimmnig complex. u noe y? coz there very fun..got slides, wave pool, lazy river etc. hmm..s tempted to go..but alone very sianz leh...

Also, i've been thinking of playing badminton. But everyone's so busy nowadays. Du shu de du shu, zuo gong de zuo gong. hai...

Btw many thanks to mingying, christopher and ivy for the pair of street soccer shoes. i really love it! Its a great bd present, but nxt time you xin jiu hao yea? when i tink of how much it cost i will xin tong.

To Si Qi aka cutie princess tan(zhen bu yao lian) ~bleahx~ ... hope ur knock on the head really mei shi worx.. Must massage and monitor symptoms hor. and you spend summore... really will broke de(even gd offer aso muz ren)..lolx! kk..don mind me crapping. =p i still waiting for you to tong zhi wo when i can go over lehz.. neway the stars i today tired so nv fold. Albums i'll search tmr. Its time to update your blog too!!!

Recently i start to miss choir again...
Hmm..and the jap course ended le... but shh.. i din attend the last lesson neway.

In time i shall be training chris on running for zhss sports day..i'm sure he'll clinch smth. Its aso time for me to get back my fitness..my target is by end of this yr can do 12 pull-ups and run 2.4km at 9min again.

The new paper big walk should be coming up soon too..this yr must get back my top 15 positions. i wan a new watch! hahas

I'm a person who likes adventure and sports...
That's y maybe in years to come i might consider joining the army a few years..but the navy? (a few days ago received a letter from them opening me an option) ..erm i guess i still prefer the land. i wana be a commando. ^^

My hp ye lao ye duo wen ti...but sadly i can only change my hp end of this yr when the plan ends. and that means i've to save up again which means working, since all the money for any of my expenses have to be forked out myself. :(

Anime craze for me has not returned..apparently i'm still waiting for naruto epi 180 to be released. quite exited abt it. More anxious would be Trinity Blood season 2. Wonder when it'll be out..dying for it!

Comic is wad i'm after nowadays. Gonna pick up Death Note where i left it the last time. And i'm awaiting Trinity Blood bk 4 as well as Record of the Fallen Vampire. Do u realise i've a taste for vampire stories?

Yet when i grow up my dream is not to go transylvania but egypt! I've always loved the mysic atmosphere surrounding one of the world's oldest civilizations. The pyramids, the mummys, tombs, the nile...everything is just facinating!

But wad my future holds hai shi ge wei zhi shu so take one thing at a time ba..
that's all folks. Otaijini.
Byez.. zooooOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMmmmsss =D

2006-02-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Yesh!!!

As you can obviously see i've change my blogskin again..but this time its entirely my work. Although not pro but i'm very satisfied ler. hehe..

For those who have no idea What's this theme, its based on my favourite anime: Trinity Blood. Interested ppl can contact me i lend u the anime.

Yay some probs more or less settled. =) So today mood much better i guess.

But sadly i'm down with an over-strained back. went to see polyclinic after my counselling wif my social worker at sgh. So i din attend ritz today.

Tmr shall be meeting Si Qi. Cheers! remember fold hearts hor... :p

Oyasumi mina-san~

2006-02-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

Thank you to all who remembered my birthday and for your blessings and well wishes!!!

Si Qi, the present was simply splendid. But it must have cost quite an amount.. so next time don't spend so much k? Just a card will do already. =)

I must acknowledge my family for putting up their best act together so that my mood was not spoiled.

Tomorrow i'm suppose to go for my cgc appt at 11am, but apparently i'm working at ritz from 11am till 12am..so..

...I'm terribly sorrie to sm1...
Hope you can get over it. Nothing will happen to you derhz. Take care!

Birthday

2006-02-21T03:05:00.000+08:00

Wahahahax! Alas i'm breathing fresh air once again.. whoa u cannot imagine how terrible life is in a police custody cell for 20h!!! Furthermore, being subjected to 5 days "imprisonment" in IMH really could drive a norm into abnorm.

Catch no balls as to what i'm saying? hahas.. well basically i was arrested by the police on last wed evening(around 6pm). Apparently i was merely sitting on the 25th floor paraphat of blk 179 in TPY just chilling out and relaxing while waiting for my family to arrive b4 meeting them for dinner. However, some really CARING public saw me and thought i wanted to commit suicide so alarmed our ever alert police and they came for me :(

I was sent to the TPY NPC and interrogated. They then called up my parents, and there went the dinner. The atmosphere when my parents came, was simply choking! Aiya..but no matter how many times i explain my reason for sitting there and telling them it was a plain misunderstanding..somehow our dearest police officers think otherwise. -pulls hair- The whole thing went on and on until about 7.15pm when i was !!cuffed!! and sent to Tangling HQ.

Upon arrival, they confiscated all my belongings, and the constant bombardment of questions and doubts sure made me feel things were not going in the direction i hoped for. True enough,about half an hour later, they threw me into a cell which contained a china worker. thank goodness he was a nice person...he was locked up due to failure to extend his work permit if i'm not wrong? There was only 4 walls and in the cell was a squatter(the kind where u squat to relieve in toilet). Let me tell you, theres absolutely no privacy, lack of hygeine, basic human rights. I even had to undergo a 'strip-search'. WTH

Luckily, i'm used to sleeping on cold, hard floor. It was rather cold as ventilators blew in wind. Then, there will be constant roaring of vehicles from the outside..again thanks to myself being trained to slp in noisy places yet keeping a vigilant lookout.. or else i really would catch ZERO sleep. Meals are served at 6am, 12pm, 6pm respectively. Lunch was ok, but breakfast was hard bread(as if kept for a week) with only margarine and a cup of sub-standard coffee. I don't take coffee!! but i had to force myself to gulp it down or i would dehydrate. sobs.

Soon indians were locked into my cell as well. I must say i'm very lucky in the sense that all my cell mates are really nice peeps. just think about it..if some gangster guy came in, as much as i'm not afraid but what if break into a fight with him..sure will worsen my charges. anyway during my medical check-up, i controlled my heartbeat to 46pulse rate. The alarm of the machine ran off as it was a danger zone.. hehe..not bad huh..to train to control pulse rate took me quite some time to learn in the past wor.. but y i do so is to show i'm calm and rationale.

The cuffs and straps i had to endure were really humiliating. Life in a cell is the experience of physical and mental agony. On thu night i was released on paper bail...the police was super inefficient this time. Actually was supposed to be out 5h earlier but they drag until late evening. bengsan manz! Then, i was sent to IMH for assesment by the doctor..i thought i could be released thereafter...but...NO!!! I had to stay to be observed! argh

So, i was sent to CGC for 5 whole days. At first really wanted to breakdown ler.. over there at CGC is plain Mental and emotional agony. I feel so restricted there in terms of talking or expressing myself. The nurses are really nice ppl, but i simply had to put up an act throughout, showing a very positive attitude so that they will write a reasonable report for me. Besides, all the other patients there are real nut cases. help me!! The daily activities they do also don't suit me. My whole lifestyle had to change. It was a torment inside. If not coz i smuggled my hp with me and did constant sms-ing, i think i might really have gone senile. gosh...thinking of it still gives me the jitters. this may be good training for me b4 i enter army, but still...should gradually learn not one shot load me so heavily wad..

Anyway its the past le..just that 1 mar hv to go back tangling hq dere for one last assessment and hv to see my social worker again. just count myself super suay lor..

I have applied for poly...and Temasek is the likely one i'll go with Hospitality & Tourism management as my subject. I believe i'll enjoy it. :) AS of around 4h ago, i have gained access to M18 shows le..hoorays!! Also i will not be under the 'curfew' the stupig government has imposed on teenegers. =p yay yay!

Yet as much as i should be in the mood to rejoice, i must confess i'm not. Loneliness actually clouds over me...i feel so empty today. Hope things will have a better turn soon enough...
and finally, i'd like to thank chris for paying me the visit at imh few days back. it really meant alot to me.
Oya this yr i shall aso be retaking el coz i really not satisfied with my result this yr.
Alright i think its also time for me to snug into bed. Otaijini~

2006-02-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

Ok here to summarise my O Level result. L1R5 14pts.

Breakdown:
-English C5(not happy with this so will be retaking)
-Chinese A1
-Combine Science A1
-Emaths A2
-POA A2
-Amaths B3
-Combine Humanities B3

I've decided to go poly instead of jc but have not yet decided which course and poly to go.

Will miss tpjc choir. My right leg have not recovered fully but is getting better by the day.

Valentines' Day tmr..zhu you qing ren chong chen juen shu, you yi yong heng bu bian.

today pei si qi and wylene go nafa and tp.
tiring.. but truly hope they can get into the course they want to.

Take care!

2006-02-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

Tick tock, tick tock.. what is the time now MOE?

In less than 24h, all 2005 graduates of secondary school express/normal, we shall be getting our O-Level results!!

Panic? Sleepless? Tears?

Well, i for one, is not at all nervous..

I guess its probably due to my belief that whatever that could have been done to salvage the results should have been done earlier instead of praynig and praying now. nonetheless thank you yy for praying for me...and many others. ^^

Wish everyone best of luck! I did attempt to 'dian ge' on 1003 so hope it did go out to those who are listening to it.

My college's 21st Road Run was held yesterday at ECP. Once again, i was late. The race ended with me getting 23rd for indvidual prize, and 5th for team prize. My House, also known as GREY(cool yea? -sacarsm-) won 2nd.

Yesterday worked at Ritz... zzz

Today i pon sch. Too tired sia.. summore my leg conditioned worsen over the last 2 days. Really quite bad la.. lets say veins burst? That's what i analyse. -limping-

No mood to do homework yet..i doubt i'll be doing.
Tomorrow still undecided whether to go for jap lesson..

blahs..pls do comment on my new skin. thanks! Take care!

2006-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

in a flash ...

O-Level results will be out next week!!!

Anyone feeling the jitters?

I know i have not blogged for a long time..pai seh ah peeps. Sadly i've lost track of what happened in the past weeks already. -actually is lazy to type everything out- =p ..after all time is money. lolx!

Well its still Chinese New Year since it lasts for 15 days..so, da jia Xin Nian Kuai Le! =)

Alas next week i have work at Ritz le.. going to be another hectic week for me. but only lidat i tink i feel moe chong shi. heh

Jap lesson is coming to an end really soon... happy/sad??

Hmm.. i don't feel like crapping for now liao..coz tmr still have work tmr early in the morning. need to zzz already..hee.. maybe update soon to bu chang okiez?

*Syaoran loves Sakura*
(ps: i shall be changing layout very soon to mark a new hope) ^^

Otaijini mina-san, oyasumi nasai.

Life picks up.. ^^

2006-01-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

Another week has passed. I've just had a simple but ambrosial(to me) dinner. :)

First and fore most, i would like to scold myself for being late every single day of this week for sch. -abish-

Mon is like any other day...but with my first lesson of PE in TPJC. My CG was particularly lucky i guess.. coz others had to run like 8 rounds when my CG was only asked to do 4 rounds. wahahax...big time slackers!! Our teacher dam hao lian..but ok..mayb uu were rite he's just trying to motivate us. My CG guys all very cheeky n horny..loads of laughters filled the entire session. i was approached by cher to join track, badminton etc.. thanks to my itchy legs for running in first. arghh.. -headache- i prefer CHOIR! yeah!

Ok then i must say we zhss ppl in tpjc r picking up a really bad hobby = gambling. oops! 'cards r not allowed in sch don't u noe?' that's wad the chers keep telling us when they walk by but do we care? NO. hahas

Anyway, i've been a da ying jia..while the others hv been da shu jia.. hehe.. pai seh ar..win ur money.. :p

i luv GP, ECONS, and CL. rox!!

Phy however is utterly boring and uncomprehensive. Lecture by "jigglypuff" sure sends us on a spellbound ride in our own wonderland..woosh!

Maths at JC level really challenging..help me!

Wed i had work at RITZ again.. worked OT till 1am.

Thu went back zhss as i had an appt wif banana. He provided me with valuable help..thx! N i took my year book. :) Have to apologise to huixin for ending the conversation so abrubtly due to banana's sudden intervention..lolx! i aso had a gd chat with mrs koh n she gave me an insight to help me see wad i might like to take in future... miss leow u look pale..hope u r really getting better.

The very next day i went back ZHSS again for choir prac. But lessons ended early at just 9.40am. wahahax..n me, ht, d, l all 'sneak' outta sch!! felt a great sense of achievement..tell u aso u wnt know unless u r a tpjcian.. hee..
That night attended jap alone but towards the end the lesson was more fruitful.

Eli is very cute... -question marks?- too bad..heh

Btw..ppl I've gotten through the TPJC choir audition and i'm offically in Tenor 1!!! i cun believe it ... realli...another ndp leader(one of the 13) george is in TPJC and in choir in tenor as well. whoa..lalala

Today had work at mac..sales volume supremely good. But i was so happy to get the chance to polish up my skills once more. after all i wnt hv much chance to do so in future since i'm resigning real soon.

Tmr shall be going to JB with my mac colleagues..the same batch one..i'm very sure we'll enjoy ourselves..but will we get lost?? wish us lock (,")

...when will i eva stop deluding myself...

~Aishiteru**

2006-01-15T18:02:00.000+08:00

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust...

Heez... but my blog shall never be part of that category =Pp

Gommen nasai. omachitousama

I Know i've not been blogging for eons... Yes! Did you spot mushrooms and fungi? Hahas
Three cheers for my return!!! ~Hip hip Hooray~ -diaox-

Alright, this is all thanks to my stupidity for taking up 3 jobs while attending this first 3 months of JC. So perhaps you can't imagine how busy and exhausted i am, but just try to link it with "hectic" & "Insomnia" . Get a rough picture? Oh wells

So care to know what are my 3 jobs? Okie, i shall spill the beans: {1}Serangoon Garden Mac {2}The Ritz Carlton Millenia Singapore {3}Hewlett Packard

If dear reader you do not know any of these, then i suggest you find the nearest wall and knock yourself on the head. lolx!

Cut the crapping... at Mac, as many would know, i've been working there for three years and more. Still a pathetic crew leader. Yep i was offered the chance by my boss recently to be promoted to manager but i sort of turn him down. Reason being my personal attachment to my store has really dipped since almost all my beloved 'old' colleagues have left or are leaving. Besides, the usual problem of attituded crews still lingers and a newly promoted underling of mine before to manager is now trying to undermine me. I really hate dark politics!! Lastly, is the fact that my new boss is not good. I know its very childish of me to resign due to bad boss or what so ever. In real working life you don't have a chance to chose your superiors but i've really had quite enough. For the amount of work i do and effort i put into, the pay is really far too little too! I don't think i mentioned about my latest Performance Review(PR)? Let me tell you, that it was results down the drain!!! I was so pissed when i saw the report. i barely hit a mark of only 62%. In the past before this new boss and the one before, i always attain more than 80% one lorr.. Utterly disappointed and demoralising. So i've finally made up my mind to go for resignation by the end of my first 3 months of JC. i may try going to apply at Mc CAfe as Floor manager there after. :) Pay better and a new environment with new things to learn. that's what i want. -nods-

Now regarding The Ritz Carlton, Ladies and Gentlemen, please do not associate The Carlton with The Ritz Carlton for the first is only a 3* hotel while the later is a 6*. That's the obvious difference. ^^ I'm really delighted to have this chance to work at their banquet, the best in Singapore and the world's favourite hotel. I truly take pride as a waiter there. To date, i have worked a total of 11days. ..guess so. hehex! the motto of the company is (We are Ladies and Gentlemen serving Ladies and Gentlemen) Its so totally inspiring. =) I have learn a lot there, for example how to manage a guest request to 101% satisfaction. We go all out to provide the experience and more. I've made many new friends. I'm not the slow and blurr me working there anymore. I'm now capable of helping and even supervising some new fellow gentlemen. Yap and i start to love this line in hospitality. Maybe i'll go poly under this course. One draw back however, is that they are mostly night shifts, or should i say i can only work night shifts since day time is for schooling. So it goes like this: Every morning i'll wake at 5.45am, leave home at 6.15, board bus 81[from near my house] at 6.25 and reach TPJC at 7.25..school till 12.50++ and then return home to unload bag, have a bath and then leave house at 4pm to rush to Ritz to change and have dinner and start work at 5.30 or 6pm. It lasts all the way till 12am and if i indicate, could do OT till 1/2/3am. Confused? heh too bad..boo! =D Transport home is provided, but by the time i get to sleep on my cosy bed, its nearly 3am or later! and the cycle continues almost everyday since i try to book for as many days as possible. Still quite desperate for cash to repay darn debts to parents. Then, weekends, i'll work at Mac in the morning till noon. Each week i get only 1 or 2 days rest [meaning w/o Ritz job]. That's when i do my catching up of sleep. To me, mac is so much more slacking than Ritz.

The Hewlett Packard job is depending whether they need people..basically i do packing and delivering. I get to see a whole new outlook to office-like working experience. But for now there isn't any work but already i'm drowned by my other 2 jobs and the most boring schooling life in my entire lifetime so far.

Shall proceed to 2nd jan. As u can tell, i've not blogged since school reopen. First day of school i woke up unusually early as the other zhss ppl namely See Thor Hui Qi, Hui Tian, Goh Hui Qi, Daryl, Lionel, See Hwee, and HOT GIRL..wanted to meet early..which is to be in school at 6.30!! ..when school only starts at 7.30am. Wah i had to wake up at 4.45..okok..blame it also for i like to 'lai chuang for 15min' >.< cannot meh? anyway i was on time. It was a disappointment that there were no one to usher or guide us. The J2s there were not heart warming at all. I bet VJ or RJ sure will have crowds welcome you at the gate. Nevermind, we were new and lost. i guess that's normal yea? The day started in the hall..where speeches were made..did i remember correctly? But one thing i remember clear as crystal was that i was so bored i dozed off countless times? Lucky got ppl msg muee.. My Family is called Bee Gees, My OG is 22 and i'm paired with lionel in the group. Basically, it was literally Orientation. We toured the school under the blazing sun that scorched us.. -cun they choose late afternoon??- blahs.. there was dry games..but totally sianx as i knew no one else. kays, i'm anti-social i know. Even till now i make no effort to get to know anyone in my CG..i'll get to that in detail later on.. even the other zhss ppl i also don really know except for Hui Tian and See thor Hui Qi. During those breaks we you would see clusters of people with their own school mates..its all around and we ex-zhonghuarians are of no 'li wai'. but even so, we didn't talk much coz we really still quite 'mo shen' to one another. Walked around aimlessly.. and definitely stoning was almost in abundance =.= See hwee was ill and left early i think during dry games..correct? i Left early too at 4pm coz i had to work at Ritz. And once again after my day at Ritz, i was forced to take the 1.30 transport. !!! Damn them.. but alas after fighting for my rights, now i can take 12.30 transport and reach home earlier. you may not understand..kekex..but anyway its something advantage to me.

The 2nd day of orientation was much much better[though not good enough to me as i have high expectations]...we got to noe each other better...then started crapping and stuffs....learnt mass dance[i tink i enjoyed that best]...lionel was so afraid i gay with him..oops! =p...there was the couple dance n e shy guy dance and one more but i can't remember the title...but tat dae orientation was more of subject combi talks and cca talks....most of the time i'm not listenin...was either smsing or talking to my ex-pri sch classmate: Yong Ping who's an OGL. lolz! Worked at Ritz that nite again. i Think that nite i spilled on a guest..was so worried i would be pulled to the back for the most terrifying lecture but i guess i wasn't at fault and the guest was nice so i was saved. xie tian xie di.

3rd day of orientation was getting better as everyone more heated a lil? highlight of the dae was the wet games...it was oredi rainin then...so the 'extra water' they splashed onto us made no matter of fact...there's this game[as a matter of fact its called 'dog & bone' where they soap a muddy watered mat with their feets and you had to dive for the soap and get dirtied. another game is the 'crawl in the mud' game. thankfully my OG was spared. phew..also played other games as well...lazy to list all out...wahahahax

Last day of orientation was mainly...cheering...dancing...talks and more talks...zzz...then there was cca orientation...i signed up for canoein,ODAC,Choir,sailing ...intending to try and see how but with my extremely tight schedule can miracle be peformed??...then later in the nitex...orientation nitex....but i didn't go. Not interested and i wanted to rest.

Generally, the whole orientation was not that bad[trying to be polite] but frankly it could have been a whole lot better if it was well planned before hand. We have a bunch of really talented councillors! the mass dance and cheerings were probably the best and only fun parts where i enjoyed. Cheers!

First weekend was filled with work, and more work! body resistance is declining by the day..haha..but don't worry peeps coz only need to cheng another month can liao. yay! and i've got myself an mp$..yup yup..its mp4 not mp3..its something like a moblie cinema! rox!! haha..but till now i still cannot get the hang of it. sobs..

This week..got to know our CG n CT. I'm all alone in my class. sianx... STONE!!! one thing must announce is that my CG really nice person and she made the effort to remember our names by the 2nd day. i was going like WOW!! ^^ okok i forgot to say i transfered from arts stream to science stream. my sub combi goes like this- H2: Phy, Math, Econs H1: Chem. I'm rather satisfied..but i tell you, the lectures i can't quite understand. feel so guilty..i return all my knowledge back to teachers lerr.. :( i remember the first econs lecture i dozed off and the lecturer pointed me out "aha first lecture already somebody sleeping in class" so embarassing!! We played Truth or Dare game and got to know each other[zhss ppl group la] much better. =) yeah..and we played many funky games. ahahahahas...realli fun! i kana one dare..but #ahem# will not say what it is. yet stoning was never erdicated from our time-tables..coz we like have onli 1 or 2 lessons a day. feel like a prisoner dere.. so long.hahs..that's a summary of these weeks activities. Had work of course! One significant incident at Ritz was when i went the extra mile for her to walk her to the washroom, and giving her personalised service. Before she left she made a point to look for me to say goodbye. It was such a great man zhu gan i received..and lately Khor aka my most strict manager dere aso begin to recognise me. yipee

Fri me, see hwee, see thor hui qi, daryl and lionel went back zhss after being released from tpjc. we attempted to ESCAPE tpjc much earlier but failed. y won't they climb with me?? thus..we met many teachers n chatted. i went for choir prac..not confirm whether i'll perform with them on cny celebration on 27th. see how first bah..

It had been raining continuously for the whole week..till onli just yesterday...samui desne. Jap course getting stagnent i feel... really hope it willg et more interesting soon enough. i got lots of vcds lately. Yesterday was Da Shao Chu in the morning, den went out wif da ge to taka since he had a lucky draw of $500 voucher. he got me a new bag, a ear piece and an anime set. thankkew!!! he even treat me to lunch at fiesta and to the movie - proof..but we both could not really absorb it fully. It was a great day!! jealous of me? heh..lalalala

Now i'm actually pretty high because..i'm selected for the second round of choir audition by nelson kwei himself. you jin zhang you kai xin. Besides..the thought that O level results will be out in 3 weeks..ooo..i can feel the jitters already.

Today worked at mac in morning till noon.. **************************** mm hmm... seeing stars right? hahas..i know its a long post..shoo..go slp now..hee hee...

Take care mina-san.

Week Review

2005-12-29T13:49:00.000+08:00

Coughs coughs coughs...

STUPIG THAROAT!!!

Yea..i haven recovered from my throat infection. But i got take good care of myself..hee..just perhaps lately..aiya to be exact is today i cnt resist those lovely mouth-watering chocolates already -bleahs- shall drink lots to compensate. =p

Alright..let the sands of time transcend back to 23rd Dec. Lets see.. -bubbles of thoughts- ...... It was a friday..mmm..duh!!! hahas..well, i went to D&M , ok that's my third job. Was my first day with them. Did packing of thousands of ang bao envolopes for HP. pay was $6/h. not bad..summore got air-con n can sit down. i was soo efficient that i only used 6h when i was given 8h. so as compliments, boss gave 7h pay to muee. yay! kk.. enuf bragging. it was a gd experience though n not at all tiring.

24th Dec was Xmas eve..
Morning went to serangoon mrt station to meet qiqi to exchange gift. tok crap of course..hahas..
Den later met angie den had lunch n exchange gifts. went to her house to help her wif blogging. yippee..her blog is finally up. has she updated? shall take a look later on. heez!
At night i went to Mac to work. just as usual.
After work i rushed down straight to PS to meet 2E1 peeps. Missed them all loads manz! wai meng, zhen hao, benjamin, yuan hong, darren, leonard, zoe, pearlier, sharon, eric. but by the time i reach cafe cartel they finish eating. the gals left first..n we guys of course went on to the buzzling orchard streets to get armed for the 'snow fight'. hah..it was a fun night though i din stay till countdown. coz next day had outing so had to go back rest n finish up the xmas card. lolz!~ =)

I only slept at 4am..den woke up at 77.30am. gosh..zz.. but it was a special day. its CHRISTMAS!!! whahahaz.though i'm no christian its still fun to be in festive mood n hv fun yeah? (,") neway i got changed n brushed up n went out for a fun-filled day. bought myself 2 cds: Fish Leong's Si Lu & FIR's Wu Xian. at current..listening to fish leong's wo hai zi de. yap! hope i wasn't realli that boring to be wif. ^^ neway there was some slight change in plans that day. so it ended wif a sound slp in some time already.

My next day began pretty early since i had to work at Ritz from 11am to 12am(2 weddings). a whole 13h!! it was realli tiring. but i got to know alot more ppl. n i tink some ppl mistake me as another guy who asked for qian er's number. >.< yuan wang! she's chio but nono.. i don like her. nysha is my most respected senior. very nice person. thankkew for guidance. =D mmm..i really would like to recommend all my frens to join this line. its fun n u learn alot! but of cosh u gotta be prepared too. ;) i firmly insisted to take bus instead of taxi coz if not reimbursment nids to take 3 weeks!! so long! hrmph..troublesome summore.

27th Dec i got work at Ritz again, but coz halfway my stomach flip n i vomited so i was signed off at 10.30 to go home n rest. Now ok lerr so don worry. its all thx to their food..all so difficult to digest one..especially the rice!! goodness. i tink i wnt eat at that hardwork cafe again unless no choice. u see, after dinner started wif menial work immediately..sumomre duno y so cold that night..plus my body resistance had been down due to fever so i tink that's y i vomited. so embarrassing..but the managers were really nice ppl when it comes to such cases. realli appreciate. :)

Yesterday, went for D&M delivery job. was a 12h job from 9am to 9pm. We went round spore. from hougang to potong pasir to boon keng to macpherson to city area to east coast to pasir ris to compasspoint. another gd experience n insight into different aspects of jobs. onli had dinner at 9pm. so hungry. but the job wasn't very tiring. earned $72. quite happi. hehe..

Today night shall be going to spore conferrence hall to watch wei hong's choir concert. i'm sure it'd be nice! -nods- wanted to watch king kong but mayb wnt watch lerr.. cny eve i go countdown. hooray!! den shall stay out at hotel one night. totally cool!

Hmm...tmr will be having ndp leaders' gathering at kbox. rox!! but wif my horrendrous voice now..i tink i go dere open ears big big can liao. kekex!

Time flies...how many times hv i repeated this statement?? heh..blahs. Sch is gonna reopen soon. tpjc i hear got huitian, huiqi, see hwee, daryl going. its so far! nv realli put the jouney in mind when i chose it. hope the long travelling wnt wear me out.

Now that my mac junior yuan chin gonna bcum manger in the store i wonder wad politics power will shift to again..so headache. will i stay or transfer or resign. -scratches head-

hope the upcoming 2006 spills a gd yr ahead. but that day xmas went out wif yy..went kinokuniya read this feng shui bk saying 2006 will be gd yr for my studies but for job will hv alot of political struggle n back-stabbers. rela will be gd in the first month..but following not very shun li though. worst thing is i tink it said i will keep falling ill n encounter misfortunes. -prays-

Jap course lately aso not that interesting. aiya.. neway hv decided wif yy not to continue it after these 3 mnths.

now i'm looking forward to jb outing wif angie, auntie cheng gek, daniel, uncle, doreen. as well as our own chalet in feb. y m i alwiz the one organising?? sian..but xin gan qing yuan derhz so aso nth to say.

Coming weekend will be work chionging!! i muz stay healthy.

Still wishing upon a *kiseki* ......

Merry Christmas

2005-12-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Merry Christmas!!! ^^

shall continue when free again..hehe..takkair

2005-12-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

Sumimasen yy & mingying, n to my blog's zhong xin zi qi zhe. hehex!

Oh wells, here i am as promised. ;)

Its gonna be a brief entry i guessed since i'm not feeling well right now at this very moment.

Yesh yesh i'm sick. had been down wif soar throat 3 days back n 2 days ago was down wif high fever. i was left alone to take care of myself. hahs..but nvm gotta be independent wad.. neway now 'family' r back from china trip. so that means house chores can finally be lifted. wahahahax

Mon was my first day at Ritz Carlton Banquet. it was a chinese wedding n i tell uu...i was utterly blurr at the very beginning. goodness..but luckily i got the hang of it almost immediately. so xie tian xie di. lolz! ^^ learnt alot!!! very happie wif the job just that the managers r like monsters. =p its true. but its a great working experience though a lil tiring but good pay after all. i worked 6pm to 12pm that day. next week working on mon, tue n sat.

Now my fever under control ler...but throat still quite bad. n worst thing is that i hv a loss of voice currently..which is not a gd thing since the XMAS is coming up soon...oh no..i muz recover quickly. fun n enjoyment awaits! but..to si qi...i'm realli still veri sorrie abt hai ni. hope u get well soon.

Today woke up early to book banquet job, den slack ard watch anime n read manga. early afternoon went down to ritz to claim taxi fair n jus realised can only get money back in like 3 weeks time!!! sux
Neway i went to dance para once today. i tell uu...yesterday i dance until so song. lately i tink i'm addicted to the arcade para. mingying lets go dance someday..my dream u noe wad? hee..is to beat u..haha

Den went zhss suppose to meet mingying to chat..but kinda too busy..so helped out instead.. den after that pouring..but i nv bring umbrella..dao mei. lolz..suan le..den went to chinatown to buy long black pants for ritz job, n den makan some gd food ard..den came home lor. now body realli weak..so tatax..gna slp liao. tmr hope a better day for everyone! take care~

Death & Decay

2005-12-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

Ahem.. -clears throat-

Konbanwa...actualli should be ohayou! paiseh i just remembered after 12 is AM so its in the morning..lolz!

Firstly, i would like to apologise "sumimasen" ... of cosh not to my patrons..hehex! the apology is to my blog! wahahahx..jealous?? =Pp kkz..jkjk ... ppl u must be showing the (=.=") face rite? hahas

Nvm. The reason behind y i haven't been blogging for sucha LOooooooonNG time is bcoz i don hv the mood. U see, although many things have been going on all this while.. but everytime by the time i am online..no mood liaoz. but obviously i m ok..so don worry peeps. -winks- i hv thrown all those unhappy things behind..cnt rem a thing now. oops! am i getting old? heh

Lets' talk abt today den yea? hmm.. the day went like this:
tatatatatatata..tatatatatatata..tatatatatatata..tatatata..tata.
Befuddled?
kekex! ..tt's the sound of my most irritating alarm in my hp. can hear? erm.. -dots- me rite? its ok. i'm crapping!
Anyway, my day started wif waking up at 7.28am. Y so early u may ask.. well..tts a secret. ahas. neway..ring ring 7 times aso a lil lazy pig cnt wake up. gosh! =D
alrite, i den cotinued slacking in bed..till.. 9am -bleahs- don associate me wif that pig though..hahaha
So, i brushed up and went to serangoon mrt to meet si qi at 10am. den we went to PS to watch the all awaiting chicky! okok..its Chicken Little
Along the way we tok loads of rubbish..n walked in circles at the top floor while waiting for the cinema to allow seating.
Now, its tiem for movie review..blahs! heez.. well it goes like this.. [The starting was gd, coz its a whole new setup from the usuals. -applause- the plot was soso.. n i muz stress there were a few funny scenes, but to me its more educating n touching den comical. but the ending wasn't that capitvating n soon lost its alluring effects on me] tatax~

Hmmm..after the show...i pei her go tampines den i had lunch at tampines foot court ALONE. sobs. well, Maybelyn Zhang u owe me another outing...lalalala. I tink i will nv dare to eat at tampines food court again ler..coz..one plate of nasai pandang cost me $7!!! wah piang! feel so cheated.

Suan lerr..its the past. shall buy an expensive lesson den. Alas, i returned home to get a bath den cycled down to TPY gym. Today's workout so song4! whoo hoo! but mingying n ivy didn't join me. >.<

...Later at 5.30pm met them at mos n crap abit larr.. played a game of 'cai quan' n ivy TYCO!!! she beat us both flat. we left ard 6.20? i dunnoe. btw ppl, mos applepie not very nice. warning in advance don say i nv tell u.. (,")

I cycled back lorr..but not home..is to heartland mall. the English-Chinese-Japanese dictionary which i ordered came so i went to make payment..its not bad but no pronounciation given n no sentence structure aso..but other den that its a triligual translation which is gd la. after discount was like $16+
..den i wanted to buy my black long pants but dere no place sell..so i wanted to cut hair but den no cheap one..so i tink tmr or weekend den get everything. mon my ritz first day must be well prepared.
B4 i left TPY i visited 'Tian Di' n dere i got a new manga "Xi1 Xue3 Shi2 Zi4 Jie4" another story on VAPIRES!!! yay! haha..its realli gd. so i couldn't resist i bought the second volume at comics collection when i was at heartland mall. The first 1 already down liao. pro hor? wana puke..? ..shoo!

Thus i came home after having "One Tonne Mee" ^^ got catch the joke? so long..wash, wash, wash clothes..the himalayas that hv piled up.. tmr morning gotta sweep n mop le.. den toilet aso abt time to clean le. Must rem to boil water aso if not i will dry up. oya nid to check letter box too! goodness

For those of u who r down, or vexed, pls do zhen zuo n rem hope is nv lost? i will be ard alwiz. :) ok..quite long entry right? enuff of me entertaining. time to slip off to enjoy!! hahas.. inu rox! *Otaijini mina-san*

2005-12-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

Miss me??? hahahas. i'm a zi lian kuang. =p

Kk..no la..just jk. kinda sianz.

Hmmm..i realise i have not been blogging for the past few days so here i am back again to chill out the recent happenings.

Firstly, sun i worked from 2pm-8pm. super shag i tell u. I guess realli quite long nv work for so long hor, not use to it. i tink i'll take time to get suited. Uncle got work! but..sad case was he said smth which i felt quite hurt. sobs. den whole day at work jiu sian sian derhz coz..well.. aiya only my old crew ppl will understand.

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In the night i received a certain few sms of which made me wrecked my brains. Hope everything's resolved. gomme nasai for my incompetence to handle such things properly.

I have not been sleeping well these weeks. Have been sleeping late and waking up early. dunnoe y. hope i can get into some holiday mood and catch more rest. neway, yesterday, which is mon, i woke up at 6.45am to get ready n wentdown to city area to meet yuan hong so that he might introduce me to interview at Ritz Carlton Hotel Banquet. sadly, he arrived rather late. but nvm... wad realli made me sick was that the interview thingy could only start at 11am. not yh's fault larr..but i was realli bored to death. between 9-11 was 2 whole hours. n i brought no music to listen nor any manga to read. all i had was a wallet n hp. so i walked in the deserted marina square n found 7/11 where i took my breakfast(instant noodles of cosh!) den at 10am, i went arcade. i was the only one!! wahahahax. so i decided to give the 2nd Remix thingy a try. It was fun! coz no one i anyhow dance aso no one see..so i not paiseh t all. hehe.. i played once only though. the first stage i actually did 94%, second stage 100%! but, third stage i failed. hahas..but nvm i was contented wif that results. soon i went back at 11 for interview n simply filled up a form. they say next week den will inform us if we get selected..hope i do. after which, i went back to the arcade..n still there was oni me! hahas..so i was bolder this time n played 2 games n the first one i actualli managed all 3 stages. hahas..but second time again failed at stage 3. sobs. haha.. -blush- so i went home had lunch.. den went serangoon central to meet chris n jaq to slack. ahaha den went home bathe den went potong pasir meet si qi. went for her religion thingy..quite fun n good experience. other den that...shhhh.. =D

Today woke up early again. Slack..had lunch.. family brief me abt when they r not at home. u noe y?? haha..coz everyone is going to china for tour except me. yesh! so whole house is mine! yay! haha..erm..but that aso means all house work mine la. sianx. kk.. ***** hope si qi u ping an wu shi. mmm..realli no mood to enjoy the day..though i promised so accompanied younger bro go lan. was constantly checking hp but someone jus didn't reply. going bonkers! hmm..ltr tok to u hope everything's fine.

Tmr shall be going hougang sports hall for badminton from 2-4 wif choir peeps. shall be meeting mnigying n ivy at 1250 for lunch first. lolx. hope ur check-up tmr goes fine.

Thu hv badminton wif the pros in the morn n afternoon till nite is my dearies 603 gathering. thx yong liang for organising. at least i can take a break ;)

Fri will have jap course wif yy at nite. morning so far nth i guess. Sat n sun got work at mac but both is noon till nite.

Eh..i tink i summarise everything le bah. except one last thing to say. regardless how independent anyone is..there r times where one simply needs others. i will be in the shadows. alwiz on the ever look-out to help u. take care!

2005-12-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

zzzZZZZ -yawns-

Today still woke up quite early..i tink 8+ ?? but nonetherless i fell back to dreamland n onli crawled out of bed reluctantly at 11. y cnt i ever hit ltr den 12???

kkz..i was fa dai-ing n chatting wif younger bro..today morning quite pek chek still la..especially after a particular sms. nvm.. i dowan to rem its contents ler. =D after all i've decided to zhen zuo..wad for so unhappi..muz be cheerfull den can help others. if not ownself down onli cause more trouble ard. lolz!

Lets tok abt yesterday..well..surprisingly the japanese course was ON!! wahahahax. but they din call mi! hrmph. shall nv trust online booking again le. neway badminton oni me yy. heh.. she's gd! den there was a non-stop water-flowing faulty tap which made yy super worried..realli a 'hao gong ming' hahaha. after which we went to take 159..n we were late for the course..by 10min. only pathetic 4 of us. but i tink still gd coz lidat more attention by teacher. our teacher is a man..quite old le i guess.. n the lesson was starting wif basics. fun! den we aso found out 43 can go dere. so next fri me shall be meeting yy at the bus stop near our home den go tgt. (,")

Ok..back to this afternoon..i cycled to hougang plaza to take my typhoid injection. stupig lu qing larr..tell me dere cheaper..bluff mi!! its $21 lorr..at heartland mall there oni $20. waste time waste money. grrr.. suan le..but i saw aunite poh lee n her hubby. so cute the 2 of them hahas. neway went to store hours b4 my scheduled time. miss my store la. its like my 2nd/3rd home lo. realised that finally ping ying n yuan chin both promo to crew leader as well. realli happi for them. =) i can alas tui siu lerr.. all my teaching already chuan shou to them le so i not worried. ahh..today there was these 2 customers unhappi wif my crew.. i was glad i could lend the customers a listening ear n they were happi n closed the issue immediately. yay! so long..i worked 5h today..quite sian la..i miss my fellow old crews. nvm tmr can see uncle liao. wahahax

kkz..finally i'm a free n happi soul. yup yupz! yippee! thank you all of u out dere. ^^ do-mou mina-san ..kekex

2005-12-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

Okay changed back to this skin again..hahas! there used to be error in the past. well..i guess most of u out dere never seen this skin b4 so i tot it was okay to use it again. =) besides i lub the music ^^

Have been a few days since i blogged. On Mon, mini choir gathering. Went Kbox n play arcade n took neoprints. It was realli fun!! especially the table hockey session. wahahax! Me n mei ruled! =p someday we should meet up again... but now tink abt it aso probably wnt hv much time to see them lerr... quite sad abt the fact i'm graduating actualli..

Den, yesterdae was Choir BBQ 2005. morning till noon was moody..coz of some things la. Me went there prepared to be blamed for the food n blah blah blah already. lolx! cnt be helped la..i got my own ku zhong. but still sums up to my own stupidity. but i'm happi this year fire started very smoothly. was kinda blurr at the beginning coz i realli not familiar wif ecp. walked a distance b4 we reached our pits. on the saw bee hive extermination going on n a bee actualli fell on my head. quite sad la..so many dead..others were struggling their final breaths i tink. thousands lay dead. Later when we reached our pits, found out was quite far apart. again..my fault. axs machine didnt show dimension lar. neway i'm realli thankful chris went..realli.. thank you! hope u can cope too. but to me overall still success ba. hmm..coz most ppl who said they were going went.. n i ensured there was ample food though for bbq ones were realli lil. i tink games part was the best. yeah! we realli played n enjoyed ourselves wif the water bombing!! muahahas.. n mingying kicked sand into my eyes n throat n all over mi..sobs..u should noe i would nv throw u into sea de la..but nvm. hahs. we all had a great time. even mrs ngiam could not escape our wrath. hehex! all were wet.. hope no one falls sick. if not i will be real guilty. there were sparkles too! but i tink nv realli ebtertain much la. i dunoe? ms lim went. mr ong however did not. it was my fault. should hv told him earlier. i noe no excuse can be given.. all in all yesterdae though i incurred loads of loss..but i'm willing n still happi. after all that's the last thing i can do for the choir already. next yr onwards its up to u all ler. ganbatte!

ps: jeremy bao bei gomme ne. yesterdae for the third or izit 2nd time? i brought the harry potter books but failed to rem to pass to u. so sorry..someday soon i go zhss pass to ur mom to lend u read ok? ;) love u lots!!! =D

Today's badminton only left me n yy..eh..who still wna join us? 5-6 at tpy sports hall. hmm..n suppose to hv soccer tournament again..but i'm sorry i tink i realli loose the heart for ny soccer le. call me fickle or wadeva..neway i'm sian n pek chek. the jap course i aso dunno if will start today. n i hv not gone for ritz interview. mayb i'll ask for transfer to rvm mac soon. c how first ba.. ltr i gonna take my typhoid injection. tmr still got mac wrok from 4-8. sun 2-8. n dunnoe if mingying n xl wan tuition aso. nothing is realli going rite for me during this period..

DEFEAT

2005-11-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

Okays..i'm still suffering from severe tigh aches. Its really bad. The degree is such that even walking is rather difficult coz the searing pain is nearly unbearable.

Well, this holiday i seem to be waking up almost at 8 every morning. y can't i just be allowed to sleep longer?? oooo T.T Played ps with younger bro. He was rather pissed wif me keep smsing. sorry wor. i noe its my fault. will not do it again ok? hehe..

Today had the soccer match against MJC..whom r the national champions this yr!! So we lost 5-0. Was rather expected. Neway coach said it was a training match n he just wanted us to gain experience n learn from mistakes. i however was rather disappointed wif my own performance coz i realli under-perform by alot. i nid to train on my fitness once more n i nid to get used wif boots n field playing. must be more physical if not very easy injured. most impt, i tink i nid to know how to play my position properly. today i hardly touched the ball.. n when i do, i almost loose possesion the next instant. but i'm still glads i managed to provide 2 good passes. the opponents were not as strong as i thought though. their skills were not as dauting as i imgained..but they had 2 national team players on their squad which i muz comment r realli super duper good. they played rather rough..n i was thankfull not to be injured though i was tackled once n fell. kkz..so next mon, wed, fri is real tournament. hope i can do the team proud.

Quite tired now actually.. but dunno y cnt slp. mon say got choir kbox session. i wna go! but dunno when is the match n wad time i muz report. hope it doesn't clash bah. next week i aso wna play badminton..mayb play on 2nd dec itself? den pay n go straight for the jap course? lolz!

I have less den 48h more to get over it. hahas.. i will. but my job not secured yet. shit la.. nid some cash lorr.. next week muz get the interview done. yesh yesh. -nods- lately seem to hv lost the passion for anime. i'm aso hoping to hear from my pri sch frens when's the upcoming gathering.. -anxious- =p next week gonna be sooo busy..hope i can squeeze time go 4e1 chalet awhile? btw REMINDER: Choir ppl attending the bbq on next thu, venue is East Coast Park area D pit 34, 35 from 3pm-11pm. We will be playing water bombs so those who wna play do bring extra shirt to change. tatax!

oya i'm delighted!! chirstmas got ban4 le. hehex! ^^ oyasumi~

2005-11-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

VCH concert has ended. n i'm happy it went well! ..for all of us. haha..especially since its gonna be my last time performing as a zhonghua choir member. -sad- but i will treasure those great days! rock on choir! met NDP leaders as well. so happie to see u all!! whoa..all become more handsome n pretty. wahahaz. Muz meet up for kboz session someday soon. takkairs

Yesterday was sorta our Graduation Ceremony. I will miss my teachers! even if its KTan..hahas! Now i come to realise how much attachment i have for the school. i Love all my teachers! in special, Den Lao Shi, Ms Leow, Mrs Maureen Wong, Ms Loo, Mrs Koh and Mr Koh. Thank you all for everything, n i mean everything! What i am today are all to ur teachings n nurturings. of course not to forget my lower secondary teachers as well, such as Mrs Raj, Mrs Seah, etc. My chapter in ZHSS has come to an end but ur care, concern and understanding will never be forgotten. After 5 years here..hah.. anyone wana know secret places or how to access them, do check me out. =p Mr Lim is sure to be furious if he finds out i'm teaching juniors how to break school rules. Bleah~ ..btw testimonials n certs were splendid! thx chers! cheerios!!! =)

The PAE breifing was indeed brief..lolz! neway last year i've read through the booklet that my frens gave me. So i'm not too confused. In fact, today morning i've already registered my 12 choices for my first 3 months entry to JC. I wana go n enjoy and experience wads its like in JC. Den i can decide whther to stay or go poly thereafter.

Wanted to go out at night to pasir ris beach yesterday but mei can't go so cancelled lorr..in the end i delivered books for her..only to get half the load 'tui hui' sobs.. wan to hang u upside down n piak piak u. hehe ...so i stayed home the entire day lorr.. these few days not at all happy. i've been negleting slp n food. summore yesterday didi n dad turned to violence. wad a great family yeah? gone case le as i predicted..wonder how long can last. but that's not the main thing tt's bugging me.. but something else. neway really nothing gold can stay. very big mood swings..n i deeply apologise to those who care for me that i've caused u to be worried..especially to si qi. sorry. i'll take good care of myself. give me till end of this week ok? thx.

Just now went NYJC for soccer training..wah my fitness has really dipped. i Muz train doubly hard. i dowan to let the team down. Now my whole body aching like siao! i very scared tmr can't play properly for the team against MJC!!! They are the top in the nation for A Division Soccer. goodness. Bless me.

These few days have been raining n really cold. Ppl, muz wear more n gai bei wor. At first tmr till sun suppose to have full time HP job at spore expo..but last min cancelled. quite pissed. it screwed up my plans. neway next week shall be meeting yy, n hopefully c n jaq to play badminton. tue is 'family' day. going jurong to swim den go Jb to watch harry potter(again) n makan gd food. yummy. next mon, wed n fri will have soccer tournament. den in between mon to wed shall go for 4E1 chalet awhile to play. hee..don mind me. i just love that class!! boo to my class. den on thu will hv choir bbq at east coast park. peeps its area d pit 34, 35. pls bring xtra clothes for those who wna play water bombs. Jeremy bao bei sponsoring the bags. hehex!

Shall be resuming work at mac on 3rd dec. den work at ritz hope can get started asap. Nid some $ quickly. lolz! time is speeding again. well..the entire 'family' is going to china for 2 whole weeeks which leaves me to tend the whole house to myself. muahahaahs! -disaster- =p independence just rox! hmm..kkz..i tink i crap long enuf lerr..to compensate my missing entries these few days. heh ^^

Take Care~

2005-11-21T18:25:00.000+08:00

Didn't slp at all...

My deepest apologies to si qi. realli hope u recover duely. wo he ni wu yuan zai zuo peng you le. zhen zhong!

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life.
You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first.
You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker.
You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

jap course thing settled. tmr last paper n vch performance. i tink i'll screw all up. gomme ne

today rehearsal bad.

Overall everything was bad. but its no one's fault but mine. so pls stop blaming urself. its my own god damn problem.

nothing gold can stay.

Requiem

2005-11-21T03:45:00.000+08:00

midareyuku subete no mono owari ha kono yo no ha nai
There is no end to be found in this world

nemuritamae itoshii hito
Sleep my beloved

sono inochi tsudzuite yuku
Your lfie goes on

anata ha umare soshite ikita
You were born, and you lived.

kibou no uta tsutaeru nda ne
You will tell the song of hope, won't you?

towa ni
For eternity...

sasagetamae kono namida
Offer up these tears

arigatou yume no shifuku no hibi
Thank you, days of blis within my dreams.

kono basho de deaeta koto
I thank the fact that we met here.

towa ni
For eternity...

SIANX

2005-11-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

I'm going through post-exam depression now...

Argh.. Boredom is suffocating me! y? i'm suppose to be dam busy... grr..i dunno y either. Early morning i will auto wake up n the most stupig part is i go to my messy 'junkyard' in search for tb to study!!! gosh i'm mad! as i m abt to reach for the books, i realised o's r over. so fast??? oh no..wads getting into my head? help! i tink i now kinda miss studying.

At first next yr wna go back very often to see teachers n frens n mei. but now so many teachers leaving lerr..sob sobs. Lets name a few... Mr Koh, Mr Queck, E Lim n even the 'have a gd day' ms loo as well. guess next yr go back more to see frens n mei lerr. i tink the onli stable n surviving department in zhss is the maths department. i tell u..zhss is gonna fall to band 5 or worse in 2 years time. can be forseen..since the intro of arts DSA. n of course muz thank "dear" ms tan hwee pin for her great "contributions".

Neway VCH concert coming up just next tue..i'm not exactly prepared yet. hope i don make a fool of myself on that nite. Choir bbq is aso round the corner..hope it'll be alrite.

Okok..yesterday went j8 alone to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Totally cool! Hermione is just getting more and more awesome! heex..kkz..getting horny..no la... but i find ron looks a lil wierd this time round. my weird taste i guess. den there was aso xiao yuan superstar going on n i went to take a look. our sch zhss ophe qualified. congrats.

Later i'm gonna pack up my all messy junkyard. nid to sort out books to pass to mei n frens. den notes as well. remaining is for BURNING!! wahahax. aso gonna check up jap course thingy. next week onwards realli gonna be dam busy. taking up 3 jobs this holiday. hectic! n there's the inter-jc soccer tournament i'm helping nyjc to play in. goodness. i'm gonna be rundown wif fatigue.

Do you know i still feel?

The end of a beginning

2005-11-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

Wahahahahahax!!!
O-Level is OVER
^^

Don't ask me how i faired for each subject. I am just happy i studied and did my best for all except amaths and history. sorry mrs koh and KTan. but i'm quite confident of 20pts n below. hehex!
Neway its too late to do anything now so its just time to party! yoo hooo! =p
Holiday mood is brewing all over mi..yep! =) Tue got paper mehz?? -act blurr- =p i tot only go mark attendance and donate textbooks? hahahaha.. i'm looney. don mind me.

Ah wells, its being eons since i last blog... miss my blog so dearly.. hahaha

Hmm..grad nite is cancelled due to boycott by the majority of the level..which means we'll be getting our living cert, cca cert blah blah blah on 23rd PAE briefing which is from 9am-11am. where's the venue btw? hu cares. lolx! i'm gonna put nyjc as first choice for first 3 mnths,last choice should be srjc.

U know...i realised that now i'm even busier then when mugging for O's. gosh.. -lobsided- hee..

Later got music n movement nite..yay! i miss choir! ooooooo (,")
At first suppose to go out wif maybelyn "zhang"...to watch harry potter but she 'bang seh' mi...baddie! hrmph jue jiao! lalala..

So bored..lucky got my dearie blog..syang..er xin..hahaha okok..i'm lame. last nite so tired..2am den slp. zzz >.<

Alot of ppl nowadays keep falling sick..pls takkairs!
Thankew all my teachers for everything! =)

2005-09-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

Another nostalgic day.

School was in no particular different then usual, except with more and more other school's exam papers piling up on my already pinnacle work load. Soon enough it will be taller than everest!

Erementar Gerad has come to an end of the wonderfull tale of love and adventure.

My friend had burnt for me the OST2 of Tsubasa ^^ as well as Trinity Blood. Both are masterpiece. =)

Saw mrs koh after school today in the library and cleared much of my doubts. Thank you!

Mr pang issue is still very taxing to me, but i'll have it solved.

4E7 was again identified as a culprit 'DIRTY CLASS'. We were even labelled as always top 3. That's what "BALDY" told our class after inspection. Sick manz..he made us wait like half an hour!!

Anyway ms ow gave us 4E6 & 4E7 a very good reprimanding but good explanation to our prelim compositions regarding questions 1 & 3. However, mrs tobias sure made a virulent lecture to us thereafter. Shall not mention the contents again. It was really discouraging and depressing. Fancy demoralising all of us at this crucial last month before O-Levels. She's great!

I am really putting in every ounce of effort i can squeeze to force every bit of the textbooks from every subject into my nano brain. I will not let those people who care for me down. O-Levels will only be 1 attempt, so i'll make it a good one with no regrets to trail behind. i want to enjoy the days after this national examination.

Thus, i won't be blogging henceforth. Till...earliest would be 17 or 18 nov. Wish me luck! =p

[...on that coming night, i wish to make U my partner...]

Winter Solace

2005-09-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

even if all hope seemed to have died away,
and your presenCe merely a sHadow that lingers in my existence,
the mEmories neveR faded one bit.
though time has mended alot,
my heart cannot leave You.
though i know its probabLy not Love,
In My reverie i still wisH a fairy tale come trUe.
unfIt i May be,
faIled you i have.
the promises i broke,
hurt you i'm sorry.
all i waNt is you to be happy and blessed...
now and forever!

I will keep back to my promises, I'm really sorry for breaking them in the past.
I'll try hard not to fail U anymore. Maybe i think too much, but from the corner of my eye i thought i glimpsed you smile with a slight wave at me? I'm sorry for still being unable to face U.

**************************************************

Today nearly late for school. I'm detesting mr pang more n more, n i'm hating certain systems as well. moderation meeting took place in the afternoon today. i wondered how much they'll moderate for me, but that's already besides the point since no matter what moderation won't get me a place in JC for first 3 months already. lessons were pretty alrite today, especially for our last phy practical. the survey was quite crappy on some questions. lolx!tmr is our last chem practical. i hope it'll be fruitfull. also, i've found out that bbq pit can be booked via sms, so i won't be requiring mrs wong to fetch me down and help choir book. just need to use my nets card. hmm..ok i'm going to sleep now. so that's all folks. byez. let yesterday's nightmare be gone! =)

Psychotic Defiance

2005-09-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

Utterly BAD day!!!
and one of the most embarassing ever!
i ... well ... shall not mention what happened.
Anyway i was sort of suspended today.
The issue was on hp and mp3.
I'm so tired emotionally.
Last night was a sleepless one.
Whithin just 24h, my life did a 360 degrees spin.
Everything went haywire and upside down.
Haiz... Extremely vexed!
but at least school issue more or less resolved,
with just a minor..prob..left..
As for the other issues, i'll just try to relax.

Thankfully, my dearest teachers were by my side.
My si dang 2E1'02 frens supported me.
If not, i really might have given up or simply be endowed with mental disorder.
really must say a big THANK YOU!! ..to all who have been with me when i need it.
It pays off to be there for ppl, for they'll be there for u too!

Takkairs peeps! I'll still be going to school tomorrow after all. lolz!

2005-09-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

!Rolling Thunder!

L1R5 = … can I don’t say?

Its erm.. lets say 1+4+5+5+6+6.

Eh...yar..that’s about it.

27

>_<

我對不起關心我的人

Gomme Nasai

Sorry

Haiz… my friends told me look on the bright side… at least I didn’t fail any, and that I’ve improved. Yar..that’s true, but now my hopes of going JC for the first 3 months is really HISTORy.

“hey there may be moderation!”

…Even divine intervention can’t save me…

Anyway, now’s not the time to feel sad or whatever. Its time to buck up. So, I’ve booked ms ong tmr after school to go through chemistry with me. Also, just now I’ve done VS amaths paper. It was really challenging. I’m going to have to see mrs koh as well to help me out on some questions.

On the lighter note, I attained a B4 for my English. Despite a poorer result then usual, I think its pretty acceptable considering the number of failures for this prelims.

Choir bbq I’m going to go down to East Coast Park with mrs wong someday soon to book the 2 pits. I’ve invited ms lim to go too! As for the VCH sales of tix, I’m still waiting for reply from ppl. I’ve finished selling mine, now helping han yu. So if anybody interested to attend the yr end concert at VCH featuring ZHSS, Beatty Sec, Westwood Sec, Edgeville Pri Choir + Alumin Choir + CO etc..do leave a tag that u want to purchase the tix and I’ll arrange with you the meet up J Its $10 per person though. Hope we will be well supported! Thx!

Tomorrow is Xin Ling’s 14th Birthday!!!

祝妳生日快樂 ^^

Poor thing, tomorrow’s also the advance paper for sec1 –3. Good Luck peeps! =D

Alright, I think I’ve blogged enough. Its time to go back to study. Buaiz & takkairs~